On The Pick

Confessions of a West Virginia Hare Krishna Panhandler

A Memoir by Henry Doktorski

Hrishikesh dasa plays harmonium in the Bahulaban Temple.

Drawing by Krishna Katha (Carl Carlson) published in the February 1982 issue of Brijabasi Spirit.

Part One: Introduction
Part Two: Helping to Raise Money for Krishna
Part Three: After much austerity, finally success on “The Pick.”
Part Four: Some pickers I have known.
Part Five: I Lose My Mojo.
Part Six: The End of My Picking Career.


Part One: Introduction

I served my spiritual master, the ISKCON-approved guru His Divine Grace Kirtanananda Swami Bhaktipada, out on The Pick full-time from October 1979 until September 1985 (with a two-month break from January to March 1980 when I served as Temple President of ISKCON Pittsburgh), and then part full-time and part part-time at least until 1988. The Pick is devotee jargon for fundraising out in shopping center, sports stadium and rock concert arena parking lots, and other places, to collect Laksmi (the Goddess of Fortune commonly known as “money”).

At first I was highly unsuccessful at this trade. Approaching strangers and trying to coax them to give me a dollar or two for charity was incredibly difficult for me. I felt I was a failure. But after a year or two, I discovered the secret to collecting big, and began collecting $1,000 per week. Then $2,000, then $3,000 per week. One year (I think 1984) I got 30,000 people to give me a $5.00 donation. I raised $150,000 for New Vrindaban that year. My total contribution towards the New Vrindaban coffer could have been $500,000. Perhaps more.

I was known as a maharathi, a Sanskrit word for a great warrior. My picking partner dubbed me “The Professor,” and a few years later, Devamrita Swami, the New Vrindaban temple president and sankirtan leader, started calling me “The Prince of The Pick.”

We pickers were respected as warriors for Krishna, rescuing Laksmi from the evil (or at least ignorant) karmis (non-devotees) to reunite with her Lord, Master and Husband, Vishnu, where she belongs. I mostly enjoyed my service. It was exciting at times, often austere, sometimes painful, but it had its own pleasures and perks, which I will attempt to describe in this essay.

The New Vrindaban West Virginia Hare Krishna commune.

In the mid-1980s, the Hare Krishna people were a prominent source of pride (and chagrin) for many West Virginia residents. Prabhupada’s Palace of Gold, an ornate memorial shrine constructed to honor His Divine Grace A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada (1896-1977), the Founder/Acharya of the International Society for Krishna Consciousness (ISKCON), was dedicated on September 2, 1979, and propelled the New Vrindaban Community into national and international media attention. So many tourists came to see the gold-leafed marble and concrete palace that in 1982 it became the third-most-popular tourist attraction in West Virginia, next to the Wheeling Jamboree country music festival and the Ramada Inn in South Charleston. In addition, New Vrindaban employed 187 local West Virginians. We were the second-largest employer in Marshall County, second only to the Consolidated Coal Company.

Festival at Prabhupada’s Palace of Gold (c. 1982).

Prabhupada’s Palace illuminated at night (undated).

In 1985, a United States congressman from West Virginia visited New Vrindaban and delivered a speech at the Sila Ropana festival, the inauguration of the proposed Great Temple of Understanding, which at the time was billed as the largest South Indian-style temple to be built in the last 1,000 years. This seven-year wave of good fortune at New Vrindaban was largely funded by tens-of-thousands of hours of work by New Vrindaban’s traveling fundraisers, hereafter referred to as “pickers.”

The New Vrindaban Hare Krishna Community in Marshall County West Virginia was founded in March 1968 by two apostate disciples of Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada: Kirtanananda Swami (Keith Gordon Ham) and Hayagriva dasa (Howard Morton Wheeler). Originally the two attempted to create an ashram in competition with ISKCON, but after a few months without success, they apologized to Prabhupada and returned to ISKCON. Thereafter, New Vrindaban (named by Prabhupada after the holy town in India where Krishna displayed his childhood pastimes some thousands of years ago) became ISKCON’s first farm community, and a source of pride (and later embarrassment) for ISKCON.

Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada’s branch of the Hare Krishna movement, ISKCON (incorporated in 1966 in New York City), was based on a much-older religion/yoga process called Gaudiya Vaishnavism, or Bhakti Yoga, inaugurated over 500 years ago by the Medieval saint and mystic, Chaitanya Mahaprabhu (1486-1534), who is regarded by his followers as an incarnation of the Supreme Personality of Godhead. Gaudiya Vaishnavas revere Lord Sri Krishna as the supreme being and absolute truth, and recommend chanting the Hare Krishna mahamantra—“Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna, Krishna Krishna, Hare Hare; Hare Rama, Hare Rama, Rama Rama, Hare Hare” as the preferred process to help one achieve unadulterated love of God (Krishna). The initiated devotee vows to chant 1,728 mantras daily, and to refrain from sinful activities such as 1) eating meat, fish or eggs; 2) engaging in illicit sex; 3) gambling, and 4) taking intoxicants, including alcohol, cannabis, tea and other drinks which contain caffeine.

Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada—with his servant Hari Sari and Kirtanananda Swami, and other disciples—visits his Palace-under-construction (June 1976).

New Vrindaban was an important ISKCON center in the 1970s and 1980s and at its peak numbered perhaps 500 residents. The mission of the community, as outlined by Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada, was/is to:

    1) Establish and promote the simple, agrarian Krishna conscious lifestyle, including cow protection,

    2) create a place of pilgrimage in the West by constructing seven temples,

    3) train up a class of brahmin teachers by educating boys at the boarding school, and

    4) establish a society based on varnashram dharma, the Indian caste system which divides humankind into four social orders (brahmin, ksatriya, vaisya and sudra) and four occupational orders (sannyasa, vanaprastha, grhasta and brahmachari).

Henry becomes Hrishikesh dasa

I lived at the New Vrindaban Hare Krishna community from August 1978 until May 1994. When I joined the community I had just received three months earlier a Bachelor of Arts degree in music. I had studied music for most of my life. In 1963, as a seven-year-old child, I showed some musical talent so my parents enrolled me in the studio of one local New Jersey accordion teacher.

In high school I discovered classical music after joining the school choir. Shortly after, I began serious piano studies and later was awarded a scholarship as a piano major at a small Midwestern liberal arts college. There, along with music, I developed a keen interest in Indian spirituality and the counterculture. I grew my hair long; I heard the former Harvard University Professor-turned-yogi, Baba Ram Dass, lecture at the University of Kansas; I was initiated into Transcendental Meditation for a $35 fee and silently chanted my secret mantra twice a day; I decided to become a vegetarian and even told my piano professor, much to his chagrin, that after finishing graduate school I would join a spiritual commune somewhere and devote my life to the search for the Absolute Truth. I acquired a packet of LSD from a classmate and kept it in the kitchen freezer, intending to expand my consciousness, but never used it because I feared, as a pianist, that it might ruin my music career if I had a “flashback” during a concert performance and I lost my motor control and coordination.

Senior Piano Recital, Park College, Parkville Missouri (April 16, 1978).

After graduating from college in May 1978, I briefly visited the Maharishi University in Fairfield, Iowa, to check out the scene, but was sorely disappointed; the students there dressed in conservative shirts and ties and wore short hair cuts. I thought they looked a little like fundamentalist Christians. I was looking for something more radical; something less mainstream; something more austere. By chance or by the design of a higher power, on the way home from Kansas City to New Jersey in July 1978, I visited a former high school buddy who that year happened to have a summer job in Wheeling, West Virginia. While sitting in his barren, hot and stuffy apartment with nothing to do, he suggested, “Why don’t we visit the nearby Hare Krishna community; they’re building a palace for their founder. I’ve been there before; it’s really cool!”

We spent the afternoon touring New Vrindaban and I was impressed. I found a community of spiritual seekers who seemed to practice what they preached: renunciation. The single men slept for only six hours each night in sleeping bags on the floor of an ashram with twenty or thirty others; they took ice cold baths (there was no hot water)—without even using soap (as far as I could see)—in the communal bath house. The toilets were only holes in the concrete floor (Indian style) without even doors on the front of the stalls! [Endnote 1]

The New Vrindaban devotees chanted Sanskrit mantras for two hours daily, usually attended two temple services daily (and sometimes three on Sundays), worked at least eight hours daily for Krishna without remuneration, ate only vegetarian food offered to Krishna, and spoke nothing except topics about Krishna or Krishna’s service.

One of the devotees remained perpetually silent except for the words “Hare Krishna” which he would sometimes unexpectedly and loudly shout. [Endnote 2] Another devotee stubbornly refused to wear socks or shoes, even in winter. His feet were heavily calloused and pitted with deep cracks which reminded me of the canals on the surface of Mars. [Endnote 3] These people obviously were serious about minimizing bodily needs. They were tough; like the Marines. Hare Krishna seemed to me to be the elite “Green Berets” of all the Indian spiritual movements. And the philosophy appeared undefeatable. This is what I wanted: a challenge.

About a month later, I visited the community again during a drive to North Texas State University (where I had been accepted as a piano major in their graduate music school) and met Kirtanananda Swami for the first time. I was immediately drawn to the warmth and kindness which seemed to radiate from him. He appeared to express genuine concern for me and I listened to him speak as a respectful son listens to a wise and compassionate father. Maharaja gave me a personal tour of the community and urged me to stay at New Vrindaban and focus on my spiritual life, instead of continuing my journey to Texas. I argued with Maharaja; yes, I was interested in learning more about Krishna consciousness, but I also had no intention of abandoning my music studies. Why could I not do both? After some time in intense discussion, Kirtanananda finally forced me to admit defeat by paraphrasing a verse from the Bible, “What is the use of becoming the greatest musician in the world if you lose your immortal soul?”

I recognized the value of pursuing spiritual studies, and decided on the spot that it wouldn’t hurt to put graduate school on hold for a few months and spend the rest of the semester testing the Krishna consciousness Bhakti-Yoga program under Maharaja’s tutelage. I liked chanting the mahamantra, I liked a vegetarian diet, and I liked sleeping on the floor and living simply in a community of like-minded souls whose motto was “Plain Living, High Thinking.” After all, I thought, I could always resume music studies again five months later in January, if I decided living at the Hare Krishna commune was not to my liking.

After a week or two living in the men’s ashram at Bahulaban, I was invited to move up to the brahmachari ashram at the isolated Vrindaban farm. I worked at the Palace-under-construction, gold leafing and stenciling and painting artwork on the ceiling on the perimeter of the kirtan hall. I chanted sixteen rounds daily, attended the temple programs, ate only Krishna prasadam, strictly followed the regulative principles and suffered terribly.

Going “cold turkey.”

My first months at New Vrindaban were incredibly difficult, due in large part to withdrawal from the object of my affections: classical music. During college I had performed with symphony orchestras, sang Handel’s Messiah with a huge 280-voice choir, and even performed a leading role in a concert performance of Puccini’s opera Madame Butterfly. I had composed original music for musical theater productions and directed pit orchestras. But that was all over now. Finis.

From hearing Bhagavad-gita and Srimad-bhagavatam classes I technically understood that most music was simply sense gratification: a highly pleasurable activity which distracted the soul from God and entrapped the living entity in Maya’s illusory energy. But God! how difficult it was for me to shed my addiction to classical music! My intellect insisted that I should stay at New Vrindaban, shed my material desires and develop my dormant love for God, but my heart sorely missed the thrill of composing, performing and listening to classical music; the excitement, the glamour, the acclaim, the intellectual satisfaction and the rapturous beauty of the passionate melodies, harmonies and rhythms which had captivated my consciousness for so many years.

Building Prabhupada a palace.

I clearly remember working at Prabhupada’s Palace-under-construction, probably in October 1978, doing some solitary gold leafing in the central kirtan hall, crying out in despair from the pain of my mental and emotional anguish and mournfully singing in a loud voice the mahamantra (great chant for deliverance): “Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna, Krishna Krishna, Hare Hare; Hare Rama, Hare Rama, Rama Rama, Hare Hare” to the tune of the plaintive Jaya Radha Madhava melody which was sung every morning before the daily Bhagavatam class. I put my entire heart and soul into that chanting; I was suffering so much. I begged Krishna, “Please help me! Please save me! Tear out my material desires from my tortured heart and heal it with unconditional ecstatic love for you!”

Kirtanananda Swami at Prabhupada’s Palace-under-construction. The author appears in the background applying gold leaf to a Palace Kirtan Hall column capital (Philadelphia Inquirer photo, c. October 1978)

Sometime shortly after, apparently by the grace of guru and Krishna, I acquired a taste for devotional service—seemingly overnight—and my mental tempest dissipated like the thick New Vrindaban early-morning fog which is burned off by the rising sun. I had a change of heart (a conversion experience), and decided maybe there was something of value worth pursuing at New Vrindaban. I dived in head first and didn’t look back. I became infected with the Brijabasi spirit and faithfully served Kirtanananda Swami’s mission at New Vrindaban for more than fifteen years. I became emotionally attached to my spiritual master and performed (sometimes) great austerities to please my master by my service.

I requested initiation from Kirtanananda Maharaja: “I would like to become your disciple and spend the rest of my life serving Krishna here at New Vrindaban.” Maharaja beamed joyfully and exclaimed, “Jaya! That’s what I like: someone who comes and does not run away.” (“Jaya” or “Jai” is a Sanskrit exclamation designating approval, often translated as “victory.”) I was initiated on March 13th (Gaura Purnima), 1979, and received the name Hrishikesh dasa (servant of Krishna, who is the master of the senses).

As I had sacrificed a great deal (a potentially promising career in music) to live at New Vrindaban, I decided to give the process a fair chance: I faithfully chanted sixteen rounds daily, strictly followed the four regulative principles, scrupulously attended all the required spiritual programs, resided with similarly-minded godbrothers at the remote Old Vrindaban brahmachari (celibate male student) ashram, and worked to the best of my abilities to help build a ornate memorial shrine for the late founder and acharya of the International Society for Krishna Consciousness: A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada (1896-1977) who had passed away only nine months earlier.

The author working on the Palace dome

The author applies gold leaf to the Palace dome (Summer 1979). Photo enhanced and colorized by AI.

The Pick.

In October 1979 I worked a big event in Chicago, “The Pope Pick,” and excelled at selling buttons with the image of Pope John Paul II. This was my first time collecting money for New Vrindaban, and I was, amazingly, the top men’s collector at the event. Thereafter I was sent to the ISKCON temple in Cleveland, Ohio, to learn how to distribute Prabhupada’s books. At first I was terrible. But I doggedly continued in this service, as my spiritual master said sankirtan is the highest service.

Somehow or other, I think in the summer or autumn of 1980, I suddenly discovered how to do this service of collecting money, and a year later, in December 1981 at the Christmas party following the Christmas marathon, I won an award for being the top men’s collector that year. I enjoyed the praise I received from my spiritual master, my godbrothers and the other New Vrindaban residents.

I excelled at this service of picking for several years, but, beginning in 1984, I began to develop some physical weaknesses which greatly reduced my stamina and collections. I was unable to regularly do big on The Pick anymore because my body had lost much strength, I believe, partly from the stress of the service itself as well as our customary abuse of and disregard for the body’s needs. Now I will tell the story about my life on The Pick.


Part Two: Helping to Raise Money for Krishna.

The Candle Factory.

The once-profitable New Vrindaban Spiritual Sky incense business—which funded the purchase of properties such as Madhuban, Bahulaban and Guruban—folded during the mid-1970s, and the income from drug smuggling and dealing—which funded much of the construction supplies for Prabhupada’s Palace—ended soon after the September 1979 Palace dedication. (For more about unconventional sources of funding for New Vrindaban, see the author’s books, Gold, Guns and God, Vols. 2 and 3.) A new source of funding was needed.

Candles were a big money maker in 1978 and 1979. New Vrindaban established a candle factory at Bahulaban where residents dipped and carved elaborate and colorful decorative candles which sankirtan devotees sold in malls or on the road. Beginning in September 1978, I worked up at the Palace-under-construction, mostly gold leafing the interior and exterior. In October, I began painting the perimeter ceiling of the Kirtan Hall, a project I finally finished in March 1979. But around December 3, 1978, I was assigned to work for a few weeks in the New Vrindaban “Candle Factory” at Bahulaban. My service was dipping candles in 55-gallon barrels of molten wax.

As I recall, we began with a plain, generic commercial candle, purchased cheaply in bulk. The candle factory workers dipped the candle a dozen times in one barrel of colored wax to thicken the candle, then we’d take the candle over to another barrel with wax of a different color, and dip into the new barrel. We continued this process maybe a half dozen times, then passed the bulk candle over to the candle carvers, who sat at tables with sharp knives. These carvers sliced the soft, warm wax and folded the slices to create fantastical patterns with bright kaleidoscopic colors.

An ornamental candle similar to those manufactured at New Vrindaban.

When the carvers finished a candle, it was then passed to the packers, who placed each candle in a corrugated cardboard box with dividers, so the candles would not get damaged during transport. Finally, the traveling sankirtan devotees picked up boxes of candles when they visited New Vrindaban, and then went back out on the road to sell the hand-made New Vrindaban product. Candles were a big seller during the Christmas season, as shoppers often look for unique and exciting gifts for family and friends.

In 1980 as I recall, the Candle Factory moved up to the Palace. It was located in the rooms behind the Palace which were in future to become the Palace Restaurant and Gift Store. Unfortunately, during the winter of 1980, the Candle Factory burned to the ground. The flames shot a hundred feet into the air as thousands of gallons of wax blazed. Even the specially-ordered incredibly-long steel-reinforced concrete beams which supported the roof (which cost many tens of thousands of dollars and were shipped in by dozens of specially-trained tractor-trailer semi-truck drivers) were destroyed. One disciple remembered:

After the blaze at the candle factory at the Palace, the devastation was complete. A new source of income was needed, and traveling sankirtan evolved to fill the void. Soon New Vrindaban pickers would generate millions of dollars in income per year. But back to the winter of 1978.

During the 1978 Christmas marathon I dipped candles in huge barrels of colored molten wax at the Bahulaban candle factory. When the Christmas marathon was over, and the sankirtan devotees returned to the farm, I returned to my service of painting the perimeter of the ceiling of the Kirtan Hall at Prabhupada’s Palace-under-construction.

The six-month Palace Marathon, from March to September 1979 was intense. I will tell some stories from that time later. The Palace Dedication Festival during Labor Day Weekend 1979 was a grand and blessed event which I will also describe at another time.

The author plays harmonium during kirtan at one of the Palace festivals (c. early 1980s). Jalakolahali plays mrdanga drum and an unidentified black devotee plays tamboura, while Dayavira chants on his beads.

After the Palace Dedication Festival, I began serving as a teacher at the Nandagram Boys School. I taught music there for about a month. I lived at the Vrindaban Brahmachari Ashram, and walked across the ridge to the Nandagram school, about a mile distant. Every day I returned to the Vrindaban Farm. I enjoyed teaching the boys. I had no discipline problems. I think they respected me, and I was fair to them.


The Pope Pick.

On October 5, 1979, I worked the “Pope Pick” at Grant Park on the shore of Lake Michigan in Chicago, Illinois. New Vrindaban sent out dozens of collectors in vans to Des Moines, Chicago, Philadelphia, Washington D. C., New York City and Boston—the cities on the pope’s first United States tour—to hawk buttons and other paraphernalia displaying a photo or image of Pope John Paul II to the massive crowds who came to attend Mass presided by the pope. Tens, if not a hundred thousand dollars were raised for New Vrindaban to help complete Prabhupada’s Palace of Gold, which had been dedicated only one month earlier.

Pope John Paul II was born Karol Józef Wojtyła in Wadowice, Poland in 1920. He rose through the ranks of the Roman Catholic hierarchy, becoming a priest, a bishop, the Archbishop of Kraków and then a cardinal. He was elected pope in October 1978, becoming one of the youngest popes in history. John Paul II was pope for nearly 27 years, until his death in 2005. Nine years later, he was officially canonized as a saint by the Catholic Church. He was the favorite pope in my family, as we are both Roman Catholic and Polish.

John Paul II in Chicago.

The Pope Pick was my first time ever collecting money for New Vrindaban. As noted earlier in this essay, during my first year at New Vrindaban I helped build Prabhupada’s Palace, and after the Palace dedication on September 2nd I served as a music teacher for the boys at Nandagram School for a month. Now, I looked forward to the exciting experience of collecting money for Krishna. I rode in the back of a van with a bunch of others from New Vrindaban to Chicago the previous evening (October 4th). We slept in sleeping bags on the crowded floor of the van.

As I recall, after an eight-hour drive, we arrived at Grant Park in Chicago early in the morning. Dharmatma dasa (Dennis Gorrick) was there with his own van to coordinate the New Vrindaban pickers. He provided us with shoulder bags containing hundreds of pope buttons. Some other pickers had bars of soap carved in the likeness of John Paul II, which people could hang up in their shower stall. We called the item “Pope on a Rope.”

Around 8 a.m., the crowd started pouring in, and we began picking, offering our buttons for sale. As I recall, we asked $2 per button. The buttons cost maybe twenty-five cents, if that. We were vendors hawking our wares: “Get your Pope buttons here! Pope buttons, only two dollars!” People in the crowd raised their hands, indicating that they wanted a button, and we’d move through the crowd, passing out buttons and collecting money. Some people bought four or five buttons. Some bought ten. Many, many times, I ran out of buttons and ran back to Dharmatma’s van, turning in my Laksmi and grabbing another shoulder bag filled with buttons.

A button with Pope John Paul II’s image.

I discovered that the best way to make money was to find a fresh crowd; people who hadn’t yet seen the buttons. After we’d been picking for four or five or six hours, it was not easy finding a fresh crowd, but somehow I managed to find them.

The climax of the day was an afternoon open-air Mass at the Petrillo Band Shell at Grant Park. At 3 p.m., church bells rang throughout the archdiocese, signaling the entrance procession for the Mass that was celebrated by the Holy Father and 350 bishops from all over North America. The weather remained sunny and seasonable.

The pope was a half an hour late, and by the time he arrived, an estimated 1.2 million people had amassed in the 319-acre park for the two-hour-long Mass. John Paul II gave Holy Eucharist to 150 people chosen from the six Vicariates of the Chicago Archdiocese, while more than 600 priests and deacons administered the Eucharist to the full crowd.

During Mass, naturally as a respectful Catholic boy, I did not hawk my buttons loudly. If I did, the people would have hated me for disturbing their Holy Mass. But I did walk quietly through the crowd waving over my head a button in one hand, and with my other hand, displayed two fingers which indicated the number “two dollars.” I still made some sales in this way.

The crowd was estimated to be 1.2 million.

After the Mass, many in the crowd chanted “John Paul Two, We Love You!” The pope responded with “John Paul Two, He Loves You!”

When the Mass ended, around 5 or 6 p. m., the crowds began dispersing. Of course it took several hours for 1.2 million people to get back to the taxi stands, bus stops, subway stations, and their parked cars. I found a good spot where many thousands of people had to pass and hawked my buttons again, this time only for $1. “Last chance to get your Pope buttons! Only one dollar!” I think after a while I dropped the price to “Two for a dollar!”

The sun set in Chicago that day at 6:30 p. m., but we kept working, as the crowd still numbered in the thousands. Finally around 10 p. m., everyone had left, except for a handful of park maintenance employees and us New Vrindaban devotees. Dharmatma’s helpers were counting the Laksmi scores.

I was quite surprised when Dharmatma announced, “Hrishikesh is the biggest collector of the day, with 1,643 Laksmi points!” In sixteen hours, I averaged more than $100 per hour. I even beat New Vrindaban’s biggest picker on the men’s parties: Muktakesh dasa (Ronald Burstein) by a mere $20.

Muktakesh was a big book distributor and a big picker for the last five years for Buffalo ISKCON and New Vrindaban. But now his big ego was bruised. He was so pissed he had been beaten by a rookie, and he told me so to my face, that he grabbed some buttons and ran out into the night in a futile attempt to make 21 more dollars and retain his title. He returned fifteen minutes later, disappointed, and he reluctantly admitted that I had taken away his crown.

After this, my days on “The Farm” were numbered. In a few months, I would become a full time picker, a position I maintained and (mostly) enjoyed for about seven years.


Trying to sell Prabhupada’s books in Cleveland.

On or around October 7, 1979, perhaps only a couple days after the Pope Pick, New Vrindaban authorities shipped me to the Cleveland, Ohio ISKCON temple, the New Vrindaban satellite center at 15720 Euclid Avenue in the East Cleveland ghetto. The temple president, as I recall, was Sundarakar dasa Adhikari ACBSP (Steven Fitzpatrick). The deities on the altar were Radha Muralidhara. Janakanath dasa ACBSP (Anthony Gierz) served as pujari and cook.

Tapahpunja dasa Brahmachari ACBSP (Terry Sheldon) was the resident sankirtan expert, and he attempted to train me up how to distribute Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada’s books, like the small paperback Easy Journey to Other Planets, in the parking lots of Kmart department stores and Kroger supermarkets in various small towns in North Eastern Ohio.

Tapahpunja Swami (Terry Sheldon)

Just a few days earlier, on October 5th, I proved my prowess as a collector at the Pope Pick in Chicago, my first ever sankirtan event, where I collected $1,643 by selling buttons displaying the image of Pope John Paul II. New Vrindaban authorities suspected I might be able to learn to collect big on regular sankirtan in the parking lots of Ohio shopping malls and rock concert stadiums, but I proved myself a failure. I was terrible. I could hardly get a donation, let alone sell a book. This service was incredibly difficult for me. In fact, it was frightening.

It was one thing to sell a button which everyone wanted; and an entirely different thing to sell a book (with an image on the cover of an emaciated yogi) which no one wanted. Not to mention the police officers and security guards who constantly told me to move on or get arrested, as Tapahpunja never bothered to apply for a solicitor’s permit.

The cover of Easy Journey to Other Planets by Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada.


My first rock concert, and first arrest.

On October 27, 1979, the American rock band, the Eagles, performed the first of a two-night sold-out stand at the Richfield Coliseum—a 20,000-seat indoor arena between Cleveland and Akron, Ohio. This was the first leg of the Eagles’ “The Long Run” tour. I was there before the concert in the parking lot, trying (without much success) to get donations for Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada’s paperback book, Easy Journey to Other Planets.

The Eagles

After a short time a security guard questioned me, then asked me to come with him to the security office where I was charged with trespassing. My mentor, Tapahpunja, bailed me out and asked me what happened. I said a security guard stopped me and asked me if I was going to the concert. I said, “No. I’m just here to distribute books.” Then the security guard arrested me for trespassing.

Tapahpunja rebuked me, “You fool! You should have said that you were going to the concert! Then he would have simply told you to stop distributing books, and you wouldn’t have been arrested!” Tapahpunja conveniently forgot the fact that he had not given me any prior instruction on what to tell the security guards if I was questioned. How could I possibly know what to say?

I felt bad after his chastisement, but the pained look on my face must have touched Tapahpunja’s heart, for then he encouraged me, “That’s all right. You are a brahmin, and a brahmin is always truthful.”

Richfield Coliseum


My first taste of traveling sankirtan.

On or around November 7, 1979, while stationed at the Cleveland ISKCON temple, my mentor, Tapahpunja dasa Brahmachari, took me out on traveling sankirtan for an entire week, my first time on the road.

In November 1979, Tapahpunja and I left Cleveland ISKCON in a beat-up old van with a couple cases of Prabhupada’s book, Easy Journey to Other Planets. Tapahpunja drove south towards Akron where we worked the parking lots of Kroger supermarkets and Kmart department stores. Although this was extremely difficult work for me—trying to get a donation from a housewife on a budget for a book with a picture of an emaciated yogi on the cover—I trudged along and gave it my best, as I was told this service was extremely pleasing to Krishna.

One time we coincidentally met another New Vrindaban traveling sankirtan party: my godbrothers Damodar (Allen White) and Jagannath Mishra (James Bulsa). Those two guys took to The Pick like ducks to water. When we arrived at a supermarket parking lot, Damodar and Mish jumped out of the van like paratroopers jumping out of a military airplane going to battle to rescue Laksmi from the karmis. I, on the other hand, was petrified and I sat in the van chanting my rounds.

After a few hours, after the store manager came out and told us to leave, Tapahpunja drove us to another parking lot in another part of town. Late in the day, we stopped distributing books and drove to a Kmart parking lot where we spent the night sleeping in our sleeping bags on the floor of the van. But first we used a small propane camp stove to heat up a quart of milk in a steel pot, which we drank before spreading our sleeping bags on the floor of the van and taking rest.

Kmart parking lots were good places to park overnight, as there were usually a half-dozen or more other vehicles parked overnight and we wouldn’t draw any attention to ourselves. Truck stop parking lots were also a good place to spend the night. If we parked at other locations during the night, sometimes the police would wake us up and tell us to move on.

In the morning, Tapahpunja drove our van to a partly-seclude place, such as against a brick wall, where we opened the side doors of the van, stripped to our kaupins (a one-piece loin cloth underwear common in India) and bathed using a gallon of water in an old plastic milk jug. We had filled the jugs with water the previous day at a gas station. First Tapahpunja bathed, to show me how to do it.

Bathing is very important to Krishna devotees. At New Vrindaban we take a cold shower every morning before dressing in a clean dhoti and kurta to attend the morning program at the temple. Tapahpunja demonstrated: first he poured a couple cups of water on his shaved head, and let the water flow down his body. Then he grabbed a bar of soap, and lathered himself. He untied his loincloth in the rear, and washed out his kaupins, while the cloth still covered the front of his body, as devotees are taught to be modest (never nude).

Then Tapahpunja poured the remainder of the gallon of water on his head and rinsed off all the soap. When the jug was empty, he dried himself with an Indian towel, changed into a fresh kaupin, and got dressed in his karmi clothes. I followed suit. I found this life of the traveling picker quite pleasant, as I am an Eagle Scout and I love camping out in the woods. However, camping in a Kmart parking lot is not as romantic as camping in the woods, but I think you get the idea.

After we freshened up, Tapahpunja put up a picture of Radha Vrindaban Chandra, the presiding deities of New Vrindaban, on the dashboard, and we chanted our sixteen rounds, which took about two hours. If the outside temperature was uncomfortably cold, we chanted inside our van, but most of the time we went outside and chanted while slowly pacing back and forth. Often Tapahpunja drove to a nearby park which was quiet and beautiful; a peaceful place to chant our rounds.

My personal photograph of the presiding deities of New Vrindaban: Radha-Vrindaban Chandra, on their altar at Bahulaban.

After our rounds were completed, we had a short Morning Program, chanting the Samsara Prayers, Prayers to Lord Nrsimhadeva, and the Jaya Radha Madhava Prayers, using a small pair of kartals (brass cymbals) for musical accompaniment. Tapahpunja then read a verse from Srimad-Bhagavatam and spoke a bit about the verse.

We had our own little kitchen in the van, with a cutting board, knives and serving spoons, and a Coleman propane camp stove. Tapahpunja chopped up the vegetables, and prepared a pot of kitchari. Every day we cooked and ate the same dish: kitchari (the word means “mixture” in Hindi), a traditional Indian dish typically made with mung dal (split mung beans) and white basmati rice, flavored with herbs and spices (we used cumin seeds, dried chili peppers, turmeric powder, diced ginger root and asafoetida powder fried in ghee), and cooked with various vegetables. Some say that kitchari is the ultimate comfort food.

Asafoetida powder (hing) is made from the dried latex (gum) exuded from the tap root of several species of perennial herbs from the carrot family. Turmeric powder, made from the dried rhizomes of a plant in the ginger family, has a warm, bitter, black pepper-like flavor and earthy, mustard-like aroma. It is often used in Ayurvedic medicine.

Where did we get our vegetables? Tapahpunja liked to save Krishna’s money (we were taught not to spend money on ourselves) so instead of purchasing vegetables at the supermarket, each morning we drove our van behind the supermarket where Tapahpunja went “Dumpster Diving,” to search for vegetables which were discarded by the produce managers, as the vegetables were beginning to wilt and were unsellable. In a minute or two Tapahpunja would return to the van with an armload of wilted, but still edible produce. Dumpster diving was lots of fun. Occasionally, when we were unable to find a public restroom, we’d do our duty (morning duties we called it, passing stool) in the dumpster.

A bowl of kitchari.

After breakfast, around 11 a. m., we hit the parking lots in a courageous attempt to distribute Prabhupada’s paperback book, Easy Journey to Other Planets. Tapahpunja appeared to enjoy walking up to people, getting their attention, conversing with them, showing them the book, and asking for a donation. I did not. I’m not a shy person, but it was very difficult for me to approach all these people and get rejected dozens, if not hundreds of times a day. Sometimes I’d just sit in the van and chant on my beads, too “fried” from working the parking lots without success.

Once in a while in the morning while preparing a pot of kitchari, Tapahpunja would take a cup or two of wheat flour, add water, roll the dough into cylinder shapes about 6 inches in length, and deep-fry them in a pot of hot ghee. I thought these breadsticks were delicious, and around 4 or 5 p. m., we’d take a break and snack on the bread sticks.

On Sunday, for an afternoon dessert treat, we’d split a 48-ounce container of Breyers ice cream. Tapahpunja said that Breyers was the best brand. Eating such prodigious amounts of ice cream gave us nasty flatulence a few hours later, but it was well worth it; a real creamy and sugary treat. Eating ice cream was usually the high point of my week. We rarely got to eat such rich food at New Vrindaban, except during the weekly Sunday feast.

Then we hit the parking lots again until sunset. Before bed, we drank a glass of hot milk.

A 48-oz. container of Breyers ice cream.

During this week of distributing Prabhupada’s books on traveling sankirtan, we passed through Eastern and Southern Ohio, visiting small towns along the Ohio River and working the supermarket parking lots. We eventually landed in Louisville, Kentucky, about 300 miles from Cleveland.

Tapahpunja told me Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada predicted World War III was coming soon, and because Prabhupada knew Krishna, he knew everything: past, present and future. Tapahpunja played for me a cassette tape during which Prabhupada claimed, “Your country, America, is very much eager to kill these Communists. And the Communists are also very eager. So very soon there will be war. . . . Preaching will be very nice after the war when both of them, especially Russia, will be finished.” [Endnote 5]

Tapahpunja was dedicated to Bhaktipada’s mission and he believed New Vrindaban would become the saving grace of civilization when the nuclear bombs started falling from the sky. This, he claimed, would destroy human society as we know it. During such a nuclear winter, the government would break down and anarchy would prevail. In such a catastrophic scenario, he believed, hundreds of thousands of displaced people would take shelter at ISKCON farm communities, such as New Vrindaban, where the economy was (in theory, at least) based on land and cows.

Every day Tapahpunja studied the Rand McNally road atlas to note our position in relation to the Ohio River. “In the event of a nuclear war,” Tapahpunja told me, “the best way to get back to New Vrindaban would be to follow the Ohio River upstream to Moundsville, and then cut across country by foot.” After a week or so on the road, we turned back and returned to Cleveland ISKCON. I never imagined at the time that I’d be living out of a van for the next five or six years.

Simulation of an atomic bomb explosion.


My second rock concert, and second arrest.

On December 2, 1979, the British rock band “The Who” performed at Pittsburgh’s iconic Civic Arena, the world’s first retractable-roof major sports/concert arena. Barry Paris, a Pittsburgh Post-Gazette reviewer, declared it the “best show of the year.”

The Who in concert (undated)

New Vrindaban naturally sent a contingent of sankirtan devotees, including myself (at the time a rookie), to sell books and collect donations from concert attendees. We worked the parking lots and sidewalks. Some of the Dharmettes (the female collectors who worked under the supervision of Dharmatma) snuck inside the massive domed structure and worked the aisles and hallways inside.

Pittsburgh Civic Arena

After a relatively short time, I found myself behind bars with about a dozen other devotees in a stone building which resembled a Medieval fortress: the Allegheny County Jail. I believe we were charged with trespassing. We chanted kirtan behind bars in the holding cell for a couple hours until we were processed and released.

Allegheny County Jail

We all considered our treatment by the police a blatant crime against Sanatan Dharma, the eternal religion. Senior devotees told me that Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada had, when informed of efforts by law-enforcement agents to restrict his disciples from distributing his books, declared, “Police are pigs. Maya’s pigs.”

Senior devotees tell me, Prabhupada said “Police are pigs. Maya’s pigs.”


Kirtanananda Maharaja gives me a choice.

My temperament was not at all conducive to this life of panhandling. I suffered so much out on the road. Hardly anybody gave me any money. I was a big failure. The rejection I received from hundreds of potential donors one after another in the parking lots was a greater austerity than taking ice cold showers.

I hated fundraising even as a youngster. I was in the Boy Scouts of America from age eleven to sixteen in Troop 28, East Brunswick, New Jersey. Once a year in the spring, our scoutmaster—and parents of my fellow scouts—drove us to a nearby well-to-do neighborhood. Our mission was to walk from house to house, from door to door, ringing doorbells. We dressed in our smart-looking Boy Scout uniforms. We carried a bag full of pre-packaged light bulbs. When a person opened their door, we asked, “Would you like to buy a couple light bulbs to help Boy Scout Troop 28 from East Brunswick?” I detested doing this, but I couldn’t get out of it. I loved camping, hiking, canoeing, even winter camping in the snow, but fundraising? I hated it.

Now I had to do it again, for Krishna, to help build New Vrindaban into a transcendental place of pilgrimage, and to help me develop love for God and become advanced in Bhakti Yoga. But I did it willingly, as I wanted to develop my spiritual realization. I wanted to become a self-realized soul who was always equiposed in happiness and distress, pleasure and pain, and the winter and summer seasons. I wanted to become a yogi, so I tolerated the austerities of The Pick.

On December 3, 1979, after our release from the Allegheny County Jail, Tapahpunja and I returned to New Vrindaban for some “R ’n’ R” (rest and relaxation). I needed a break. For two months I had quietly suffered on The Pick. While visiting New Vrindaban, I liked to hang out at Bhaktipada’s house (a brick one-story home right across from the Palace) and sleep at night in my sleeping bag on the floor in his basement, along with other brahmacharis. Bhaktipada always allowed his sankirtan collectors to hang around him during our monthly festivals.

Once Bhaktipada asked me, “How’s life on the road?” I glumly replied, “Horrible. I can’t make any money. I feel useless. This service is very difficult for me.” He smiled and said, “That’s all right. I never was much good at it either!” I thought this was very funny, as I had read that a pure devotee was expert in everything.

Then he quietly suggested, “Would you like to return to the farm? You can teach music at the gurukula.”

I remained silent for a moment, turning it over in my mind. I had taught music at Nandagram for about a month in September, after the Palace dedication. I enjoyed working with the boys and they seemed to respect me as a teacher. Bhaktipada had once talked to me about starting a children’s choir and a gurukula band, and eventually a symphony orchestra and opera company. Teaching at Nandagram might be a good opportunity for me.

Bhaktipada’s proposal was tempting, but I clearly understood from hearing his classes and darshans (conversations, usually in question and answer format) that he considered traveling sankirtan to be the highest service: “The money is the honey.” I wanted to become a dear confidential disciple. Finally, hoping to please him, I said, “No. I’ll stick it out. Maybe I’ll get the hang of it someday.” Bhaktipada was pleased and affectionately rubbed my shaved head. I was in total bliss.


I go out on the Candle Pick

During the first week of December 1979, I went out on a solo money-collecting mission during the 1979 Christmas Marathon to sell the candles manufactured at New Vrindaban. In the morning I drove a small car belonging to the community to the shopping mall in Uniontown, Pennsylvania, about an hour-and-a-half drive. I set up a small folding card table in a prominent place inside the mall, covered the table with a table cloth, set up my candles, and hawked my wares. In the evening, I’d pack everything into the car, drive back to New Vrindaban, and give my collections to my sankirtan leader, Tapahpunja. I enjoyed it. I was performing valuable service for Radha Vrindaban Chandra, the presiding deities of New Vrindaban, and helping to provide funding for construction projects. I explained in Gold, Guns and God, Vol. 4:

Vintage post card showing an aerial photo of the Rose Bowl, Pasadena, California.


Doing The Pick in Hawaii.

On December 26, 1983, as noted earlier, I worked the Aloha Bowl, a college football game at Aloha Stadium in Honolulu, Hawaii. The game pitted the Washington Huskies of the Pacific-10 Conference and the independent Penn State Nittany Lions against each other. 37,212 football fans attended the event.

The previous day, on Christmas day, I accompanied two of New Vrindaban’s best female pickers, Sumati and Harinam (Carol C. Bruck and Hedy Fried), on a flight from San Francisco to Honolulu, arranged by New Vrindaban’s Sankirtan Leader Dharmatma Prabhu. This was my first visit to Hawaii.

We arrived in Honolulu during an extremely heavy tropical downpour. We rented a car, and found a cheap motel to spend the night. The ladies stayed in one room, and I stayed in a separate room.

After a half hour or so, I heard a knock on my motel room door. As I was laying in bed, on top of the bed actually, I called out, “Come in.” The two ladies entered the room and explained, “Hrishikesh, we’re leaving this place and moving to another motel. We don’t want to sleep in a room infested with cockroaches. Do you want to come with us?”

At that moment, one of the women turned on the light in my tiny room, and dozens of large crawling insects scurried across the floor and the walls into dark crevices. I reflected on their offer, but as I was tired from our long day, I didn’t want to get up out of bed. I replied:

“No thanks. I’m comfortable staying here. I hardly notice the little fellas; they aren’t bothering me at all. They stay off the bed, where I’m laying; they seem to respect my space. Besides, they live here. This is their home. I am the intruder.”

The ladies took off and found another motel, and I drifted off to a peaceful and sound sleep. The next day—a beautiful sunny day—we worked the football game, passed out Aloha Bowl bumper stickers to football fans, and collected a few thousand dollars in donations, which we dutifully cashed in at a bank for a cashier’s check and mailed it to Dharmatma, to help build New Vrindaban into a magnificent place of pilgrimage in the West. All in a days work for Krishna, in my opinion.

Aloha Stadium

“The little fellas aren’t bothering me at all. They stay off the bed, where I’m laying; they seem to respect my space. Besides, they live here. This is their home. I am the intruder.”

I visited Hawaii twice more on The Pick. One time, I flew to Hawaii with my old sankirtan traveling buddy and godbrother, Krishna Chandra dasa (Curtis Humphreys). In Honolulu we rented a car. To save money in Hawaii, instead of renting a motel room, we slept on Waikiki Beach in our sleeping bags. In the mornings, we’d chant our sixteen rounds while walking along the shore of the Pacific Ocean, or walking through the shallow water, and sometimes sitting in the water. One night while we were dozing off on the beach, a homeless man came over to me, and apparently thought I was a log on the beach. He wanted to sit down on the log, but as it was quite dark, he wasn’t sure it was a log, so he kicked me first. When I groaned, he apologized and stumbled on.

We mostly worked in the Waikiki tourist areas, although sometimes we tried picking in the shopping plazas elsewhere on Oahu. We bought a $25 air ticket to Maui, rented another car, and worked the historic whaling town of Lahaina on the west coast. We also worked the big resorts.

I visited Hawaii a third time on The Pick, and after working Waikiki, my partner (I forget who) and I took an airplane flight from Oahu to the big Island of Hawaii. There we rented a car and drove to the west side of the island and worked the big tourist resorts in Kailua-Kona. The climate was wonderful and we enjoyed visiting. We didn’t make tons of of money, but we certainly made enough to make the trip worthwhile and profitable.


Our journey to Montreal, Quebec.

In April 1984, Dharmatma sent about four or five pickers to Canada to work the April 19, 1984 Van Halen concert at the Montreal Forum. At the time, I was stationed at the New Vrindaban satellite center at 1025 Manhattan Avenue, Greenpoint, Brooklyn, New York. I served as the party leader.

On April 18, the day before the concert, we received a shipment of “I ❤️ Rock and Roll” stickers from Palace Press early in the morning, and stowed our gear in the van. I began driving our party of five pickers north on the New York Throughway towards Montreal, nearly 400 miles distant. After about seven hours, we arrived at the Blackpool/Champlain Canadian Customs Checkpoint.

This is a major entrance point to Canada, as all the vehicles on I-87 pass through here. We waited in line in our vehicle. When we finally got to the head of the line, the customs officer looked at us suspiciously. He asked to search our van, and I gave permission. We exited our van and walked into the waiting room, where we sat patiently quietly chanting on our beads for perhaps an hour. Then the officer approached us and said we were not allowed to enter Canada.

What did they find in our van? Our little brass Gaura Nitai deities on the altar? Boxes and boxes of “I ❤️ Rock and Roll” bumper stickers? Five guys with shaved heads that looked like members of a religious cult? We traveled 335 miles to get this far. We’re only 40 miles from our destination! I was pissed, and I told them so. “If you won’t let us in, we’ll just have to drive to the next checkpoint, and maybe we can get in there!”

I should have kept my mouth shut. Two hours later, when we arrived at the next Canadian Customs Checkpoint, the Seaway International Bridge which connects Massena New York with Cornwall Ontario, the customs officers knew we were coming and they denied us entrance. What a pain! I realized these Canadian customs officers were just like the police, always trying to obstruct Lord Chaitanya’s Sankirtan Movement. They, as Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada had said years earlier, were “Maya’s Pigs.”

We continued driving west and two hours later attempted to enter Canada at the next border crossing, the Thousand Islands Bridge at Interstate 81. We again, were denied entrance.

I opened up our Rand McNally road atlas (the traveling sankirtan leader’s best friend) and studied the border crossings to the west. I decided to drive directly to Buffalo, New York and attempt our crossing at the Peace Bridge, which connects Buffalo with Fort Erie, Ontario. This is a very, very busy crossing, with many lanes of traffic, and many customs officers. The Peace Bridge across the Niagara River is one of the busiest crossings on the Canada-United States border. Thousands and thousands of vehicles cross that bridge every day. I figured the customs officers were just like police men. In the big cities, the police don’t care if you’re soliciting without a permit. But the small-town police officers care greatly about that.

I drove south on I-81 to Syracuse, then west on the New York State Throughway to Buffalo. We waited in line on the Peace Bridge for over an hour before we got to Canadian Customs. We all held our breath when the officer asked a few questions.

We all rejoiced upon entering Canadian soil. But now we had to drive all the way back to Montreal! Another 435 miles to go! Geez! Our original 375-mile trip turned into a 1,200-mile marathon! Our estimated 7-hour trip tripled in length to about 24 hours! We took turns driving on The King’s Highway 401 in Ontario so that I could get some sleep, but we eventually arrived in Montreal just in time to work the concert. Sometimes Maya tries to stop the brave devotees from spreading the mercy of Lord Chaitanya, but the fearless devotees eventually find a way. That was my motto.

Michael Anthony, David Lee Roth and Eddie Van Halen at the Montreal Forum (April 19, 1984).

Our 1,200 mile journey from New York City to Montreal (April 18, 1984).


A national celebrity gives me a donation.

On May 3, 1984, on the evening preceding the 110th running of the Louisville Kentucky Derby, I convinced the famed American ABC television sports journalist, broadcaster and author, Howard Cosell, to give me a $5.00 donation. Actually, it was Cosell’s wife who convinced her husband.

Howard Cosell

The Kentucky Derby

My godbrother and sankirtan picking partner, Jagat Pate dasa (James Fleming), told the story in an article published in the magazine New Vrindaban As It Is. Jagat Pate explained:

The cartoon character Snagglepuss, who helped popularize the phrase, “Exit, stage left!”


My Vyasa Puja homage to my spiritual master.

In 1983, I wrote a homage to Bhaktipada which was published in his September 5, 1983 Sri Vyasa Puja book. I meant every word I wrote:

Joking with visiting traveling sankirtan devotees: Chediraja, Ramachandra and the author (c. 1982)


Another dedicated Laksmi picker, Harinam dasi (Hedy Fried), wrote a poem titled “Derby Day Nectar”:

Others hated The Pick.

One New Vrindaban picker, Pradhana Gopika dasi (Christina Marie Mills), the least favorite of Dharmatma’s three co-wives, recalled being in “constant anxiety” while on traveling sankirtan. “They say the sankirtan devotees are supposed to be the most advanced spiritually, and they lead a hard life. They don’t get to go home much, and they have to live in the vans and travel all over. It is a constant source of anxiety not knowing even what town you are going to be in the next day, sometimes not knowing when you are going to be arrested for soliciting without a permit.” [Endnote 95]

The sankirtan woman, Nandapatni devi dasi, recalled some of the dangers women faced on The Pick:

Another sankirtan woman, the Weekend Warrior Kanka devi dasi (Susan O’Neil Hebel), explained:


Part Four: Some pickers I have known.

From the beginning of my traveling sankirtan career, I served as the party leader. As noted above, my godbrother Dasarath was my first picking partner. After a few months with Dasa, I learned to adapt my picking mantra according to time and place, and I didn’t need to follow him around anymore. Then Dharmatma, our sankirtan leader, began arranging other partners for me. I went out with my godbrothers Krishna Chandra, Narasingha Guru, Jagannath Mishra, Janardan, Ramachandra, Kumar, Bhakta Dean, Jyotindra, and many others. I went out also with some Prabhupada disciples such as Muktakesh, Dayasara from Australia and Chandramauli. I trained up quite a few sankirtan pickers, such as Sahadeva, Mathura, (black) Mukunda, Dhananjaya, and others. As far as I remember, I never had a problem with them. They all respected me as the party leader and surrendered to my direction. Here I will tell a few stories about my sankirtan buddies.

Tapahpunja dasa Brahmachari, ACBSP

Although I have fond memories of dozens of New Vrindaban pickers I worked with, I will begin with my mentor, Tapahpunja, as he taught me the rudiments of hitting up people in the parking lots and asking for donations. Tapahpunja was a lover of gardening, a New Vrindaban men’s sankirtan leader, and (after he took sannyasa from Bhaktipada in 1983) the president of the Cleveland ISKCON temple at 15720 Euclid Avenue in East Cleveland, Ohio. One of his noticeable physical characteristics was a deformed right foot; I thought it was a club foot. It caused him to limp when he walked.

Terry Ray Sheldon was born November 2, 1948 in a “poor, working-class neighborhood” in Detroit, Michigan, the son of atheist labor-union organizers. Tapahpunja summarized his life before becoming a devotee:

Tapahpunja once told me that during this time in his life he dug out a tunnel in the ground in a secluded place in a Michigan National Forest and lived in the hole like a hippie hobbit. He continued:

Terry joined ISKCON at the Detroit temple, and after a few months, he moved to New Vrindaban. He was initiated in October 1974. In Sanskrit, tapah refers to “austerities and penances,” and punja means “heaps” or “volumes of pious activities.” [Endnote 100] The name “Tapahpunja,” therefore, means “One who serves the Lord, who performs heaps, or volumes of austerities and pious activities.”

Tapahpunja admired Kirtanananda Swami and developed a strong emotional attachment for his siksa guru. For a few years he served Bhaktipada in Buffalo, New York and Columbus, Ohio. (Both were New Vrindaban satellite centers). Tapahpunja exhibited his leadership abilities by becoming an expert sankirtan “picker” and party leader, renowned for his ability to avoid detection by the police. He also served as the men’s sankirtan leader (1979-1980). Some affectionately called him “Mr. Scam Kirtan.” [Endnote 101]

Tapahpunja was dedicated to Bhaktipada’s mission and he believed New Vrindaban would become the saving grace of civilization when World War III, which Prabhupada predicted, would destroy human society as we know it. During such a nuclear winter, the government would break down and anarchy would prevail. In such a catastrophic scenario, he believed, hundreds of thousands of displaced people would take shelter at ISKCON farm communities, such as New Vrindaban, where the economy was (in theory, at least) based on land and cows.

After Bhaktipada awarded him sannyasa in 1983, Tapahpunja was sent to Cleveland ISKCON to serve as the temple president. He established a Food For Life prasadam distribution program which was so successful that the Cleveland City Council awarded him grant money to fund the program. One devotee from the Cleveland suburb of Euclid, Mother Draupadi (Bernadette Hodas), remembered Tapahpunja, “He conducted the [temple] programs. He worked outside a lot. He was very busy. He was always busy. . . . [Regarding Tapahpunja’s character and honesty: it was] the highest. He was very, very good to us. He was very sincere. He treated us with a lot of respect.” [Endnote 102]

Tapahpunja Swami and Radhanath Swami at the New Vrindaban Temple of Understanding.

When Bhaktipada was assaulted and nearly killed by a visiting deranged devotee, Triyogi dasa (Michael Shockman), on October 27, 1985, Tapahpunja was devasted. Bhaktipada’s near death had a very dramatic emotional impact on his life. His earlier fears about Bhaktipada’s safety from hearing threats from Sulochan were brought to life. He said that he felt helpless and paralyzed with indecision about his future if Bhaktipada should die. Tapahpunja stood over Bhaktipada’s bed at Allegheny General Hospital in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania for days watching his siksa guru struggle for life, realizing that his life, without Bhaktipada’s guidance, was meaningless. Tapahpunja resolved that should Bhaktipada wake from his coma that he would protect him with his life.

Tapahpunja assisted in the conspiracy to murder Sulochan dasa (Steven Bryant)—who New Vrindaban authorities suspected was working in conjunction with Triyogi—by offering to help organize security meetings (October, November and December, 1985), networking with and attempting to recruit California ksatriyas to his cause (January 1986), as well as helping to coordinate the New Vrindaban surveillance teams in Michigan, Ohio and West Virginia (February). He also delivered funds to Tirtha for surveillance expenses. For more about the murder of Sulochan, see the author’s 2018 book, Killing For Krishna: The Danger of Deranged Devotion.

Later, after the murder of Sulochan dasa on May 22, 1986, Tapahpunja helped secure several thousand dollars so that he, and Tirtha and his family, could purchase airline tickets, leave the United States, and hide from United States law enforcement agents in India. In early 1986 he had a sexual relationship with a new Bhaktin, Cindy Shaffer, who was later initiated by Bhaktipada as Rukmini devi dasi, but this was not revealed until later.

Tapahpunja was arrested in Kent, Ohio, along with Sulochan’s murderer Tirtha dasa (Thomas Drescher) and locked up in jail. Radhanath Swami delivered his bail money to the Cleveland ISKCON temple, and Tapahpunja was released on bail. Soon he disappeared entirely. Tapahpunja, in disguise, appeared at ISKCON Inis Rath, located on an island on Loch Erne, in County Fermanagh, Northern Ireland, and introduced himself as “Ganga dasa.” Prithu dasa (Peter Brinkman), the temple president of Inis Rath ISKCON, recalled:

Prithu ordered Tapahpunja to leave immediately. Tapahpunja flew to Singapore, then Australia, then India, where he went by the name “Kuruksetra dasa.” After leaving India, Tapahpunja settled in Malaysia, where he once again donned his sannyasa garb and resumed using his name “Tapahpunja Swami.” He served at Bhaktipada’s temple in Penang. During this time, he had an illicit relationship with a Chinese woman.

Tapahpunja was finally apprehended on June 14, 1990 in the Malaysian capital of Kuala Lampur by U. S. Marshals from Hawaii and brought back to the United States to face trial. He served five years in prison. Upon his release in 1998, he came back to New Vrindaban and married a Prabhupada disciple who had lived at New Vrindaban in the early 1970s—Kamalavati dasi (Elicia Heller). During the late 1990s and early 2000s, I had many friendly talks with Tapahpunja and Kamalavati during my visits to the community.

Tapahpunja took charge of about twelve acres of New Vrindaban land to establish his nonprofit “Small Farm Training Center and Organic Garden.” Gardening was one of Tapahpunja’s great loves.

His Holiness Tapahpunja Swami (c. 1996)


Dharmatma dasa, ACBSP

Although I never went out on the pick with Dharmatma, I worked under his direction for six or seven years. He served as Sankirtan Leader at New Vrindaban from 1980 to 1986 or 1987, when he left the community. Dharmatma’s house on McCreary’s Ridge Road between Bahulaban and WV Route 88 was known as the Sankirtan House. We pickers met there on the first morning following our three-day sankirtan festivals, and Dharmatma would assign us with partners and zones to work.

Dharmatma had an extensive list of events, such as rock concerts, car races, professional and college football games, rodeos, festivals, and county and state fairs, and anyplace where large numbers of people congregated to have a good time. When I was out on the pick, I talked to him on the phone, sometimes every day, to report our scores, get new events to work, find out which venues were too hot to work, and order more bumper stickers when our supply ran low. During the Christmas marathons, sometimes Dharmatma drove daily to the Pittsburgh International Airport some 70 miles distant, and back again, to ship stickers to sankirtan pickers by Express Mail. Sometimes I called him collect from jail to tell him to ask my picking partner to bail me out.

I rarely had a problem with Dharmatma, except once or twice towards the end of his term as Sankirtan Leader. Once during a sankirtan meeting I became quite vocal about my disappointment in his leadership. He even walked out on a sankirtan meeting in the temple prasadam room because he felt I had challenged him.

Dharmatma (Dennis Gorrick), Director of New Vrindaban’s multi-million dollar “Scam-Kirtan” panhandling operation. Image from Brijabasi Spirit (January-February 1977).

Dharmatma (Dennis Frederick Gorrick) (b. November 5, 1943) hailed from Vancouver, British Columbia. During his senior year at Vancouver College Catholic Boys High School he competed as a member of the school’s boxing team. Although I didn’t think he was terribly good looking, he was a powerful man with a solid, hard body. He also had a confidence and a sexual magnetism which many women found irresistible. After high school, he worked as a bouncer in a bar. One of his wives recalled his strong and authoritative style which attracted her (and many other women) to him:

Dennis became Dharmatma at an initiation ceremony in Vancouver in June 1972 and soon became known as a superb book distributor. In May 1973, he brought a bus full of Canadian brahmacharis to Louisville, Kentucky to distribute books and collect for Vancouver ISKCON. During their stay, one of his brahmacharis had a romance with an underage Louisville girl. Her father owned a nearby tavern and also worked as an electrician for a tobacco company. When the sankirtan party left for New Vrindaban, the girl disappeared. Some said she came to New Vrindaban, but she had not. Dharmatma brought his brahmacharis to New Vrindaban to attend the big cornerstone-laying festival for the proposed Govindaji temple up on a hill behind Bahulaban where a pit was dug and a deity of Ananta Sesa was buried.

The girl’s father, Kenneth W. Elmore, came to the community with five friends (including four members of the Sons of Silence Motorcycle Club) looking for his runaway daughter. They held the devotees hostage in the temple room with a shotgun and other firearms, then the father marched Kirtanananda Swami and Dharmatma up the hill, allegedly to dig their own graves. When one of Elmore’s accomplices knocked over the solid marble deities in the temple, Radha Vrindaban Chandra, Radharani made an incredibly loud sound, like a gunshot, when she hit the marble floor. The father on the hill heard the sound, became fearful, ran back down the hill in anxiety, grabbed his accomplices and fled in their vehicles back to Kentucky. This became known as the New Vrindaban “Motorcycle Gang Attack.”

After this traumatic event, Dharmatma was so impressed with Kirtanananda Swami and New Vrindaban that he joined the community and became a Brijabasi. He explained, “After the attack I decided to stay at New Vrindaban because I loved the atmosphere and K. Swami was very inspirational at that time, and I looked forward to the adventure.” [Endnote 104]

Within a year, Dharmatma began leading New Vrindaban traveling sankirtan parties to area malls and shopping centers, rock concerts and sporting events, to raise funds for the community. His operation expanded, and in a decade his international (U. S. and Canada) panhandling enterprise grossed $3,173,000 in 1985, which was nearly 60% of the community’s total revenue of $5,472,000. [Endnote 105]

From 1981 to 1985 his pickers collected twelve-and-a-half million dollars. In the beginning, during the mid-1970s, the traveling sankirtan devotees distributed Prabhupada’s books, but they soon discovered they could make more money by distributing items like buttons, flowers, record albums, bumper stickers and sports caps illegally emblazoned with copyrighted logos. Traveling pickers worked in disguises; the traditional Hare Krishna garb of dhotis and kurtas for the men and saris for the women was discarded in favor of western clothes. Most of the men wore wigs to disguise their shaved heads.

The single, unmarried women were the biggest collectors; they were young, attractive, energetic, and they had no demanding and time-consuming responsibilities to take care of husbands and children. Marriage was discouraged because once a woman got married her collections would drastically decrease. However, the single women out on the road still had emotional and physical needs and many needed regular and intimate masculine association.

The solution to this problem was to have the male sankirtan leader act as “husband” to all the single women who needed intimacy. The female devotees took shelter from their male sankirtan leader and considered him their “husband”—even, in one instance, a girl as young as fifteen. The sankirtan leader accepted this arrangement as his sacred duty to satisfy the women’s ardent emotional and carnal desires, and keep them out collecting big to generate money for New Vrindaban and help spread Krishna consciousness. The women who served under Dharmatma’s personal care and supervision were nicknamed “Dharmettes,” derived from the female French suffix: “ette.”

Bhaktipada encouraged Dharmatma to have sexual relations with the single women to keep them “fired up” and “collecting big” on the road. The New Vrindaban sankirtan leader had three “official” wives, and many more “unofficial” wives. Dharmatma claimed, “Kirtanananda authorized me to have three [official] wives.” [Endnote 106]

Regarding his “unofficial” wives, Dharmatma noted: “Regarding sex with the sankirtan women, Bhaktipada gave me facility and encouraged me to do whatever necessary to look after these girls. The fifteen-year-old girl was very mature, like an eighteen-year-old. It was voluntary [not coerced, on her part].” [Endnote 107]

Dharmatma later claimed he never had intercourse with the fifteen-year-old girl. “Some inappropriate touching. That’s all!” he claimed. “So many rumors by vicious women.” [Endnote 108]

Many devotees at New Vrindaban were aware of the “arrangement” between the sankirtan leader and the women collectors at the sankirtan house. This was accepted at New Vrindaban because polygamy had been a widespread and socially accepted form of marriage during the Vedic era, and was, in fact, perfectly legal in India for thousands of years until the early 20th century, when the social order had been “contaminated” by modern, irreligious, anti-Vedic ideas. Devotees at New Vrindaban believed they were transplanting the noble sanatana-dharma (eternal cosmic order) of ancient India to modern America. This included other ancient Indian social customs, such as arranging marriages and marrying very young teenage girls to men sometimes twice their age.

One former New Vrindaban resident, Sulochan dasa (Steven Bryant), who was later murdered by a Bhaktipada disciple, recalled: “Kusala [a former New Vrindaban woman] told my wife that if some of the [sankirtan] women went out and didn’t meet their quota, he [Dharmatma] would slap her around a little. But if you got your score, then you got the privilege to sack out with the sankirtan leader. One [other male] devotee told me that he went over there [to the sankirtan house] one night to fix some electrical problem and heard some women arguing, ‘I collected more than you, I should sleep with him tonight.’ Back and forth. Like that.” [Endnote 109]

Sulochan, in his comment above, indicated that if a woman didn’t make her quota, the sankirtan leader might “slap her around a little.” Wife beating was not uncommon at New Vrindaban. Bhaktipada liked to preach, “Three things improve with a good beating: your drum, your wife, and your dog.” Dharmatma admitted: “The mood at the community . . . was that women could be struck. On many occasions, Bhaktipada told husbands to beat their wives. He personally told me to beat my wives, to keep them in order. . . . I was encouraged by Bhaktipada to hit the sankirtan women if they did not surrender. . . . Prior to that time, I had never struck a woman in my life, but the mood was to get them to surrender, to do the things that the husband or leader wanted, that it was okay to do that.” [Endnote 110]

In the conspiracy to assassinate Sulochan, Dharmatma gave $2,500 to murderer Tirtha dasa (Thomas A. Drescher) to fly to California and silence Sulochan, and he also gave $6,000 in escape money to Radhanath Swami and Bhaktipada so Tirtha and Tapahpunja could purchase air tickets, leave the country, and escape detection from U. S. law enforcement. For more about the murder of Sulochan, see the author’s 2018 book, Killing For Krishna: The Danger of Deranged Devotion.

Although Dharmatma never was charged for his involvement in the conspiracy to murder Sulochan, he was charged with copyright infringement due to the millions of bumper stickers with copyrighted images and logos which Sundarakar printed at Palace Press and Dharmatma shipped across the United States to New Vrindaban pickers. He was sentenced to three years in prison, but only served one year. I heard he was incarcerated in a federal prison in Georgia in the late 1990s. He and his last remaining wife Dvijapriya moved to Alachua, Florida, but in 2011 Dharmatma was prohibited from setting foot on temple property, due to complaints from women who had suffered under his oppressive regime at New Vrindaban. For more about their complaints, see Memories of Dharmatma.

Sundarakar dasa, ACBSP

Strictly speaking, I never went out on The Pick with Sundarakar, but I was a member of his picking party during the 1980 St. Patrick’s Day pick in Savannah, Georgia, as described earlier, so I include him here. Stephen Justin Fitzpatrick (December 12, 1954–March 9, 2017) grew up in Vermont. After he met the Hare Krishna people, he took initiation in Buffalo, New York in May 1975. He married Premamanjari devi dasi (Patricia), who was initiated a year after him (May 1976), also in Buffalo. She was tall, blonde, attractive, fair-skinned, and a big picker, and I believe she served for several years on full-time New Vrindaban sankirtan. In 1980, and probably before and after, Sundarakar served as president of Cleveland ISKCON.

Sometime in the early 1980s, the couple moved to New Vrindaban and Sundarakar served as manager of Palace Press. In addition to printing Bhaktipada’s books—Song of God, Christ and Krishna and Eternal Love—and Prabhupada’s books—The Bhagavat Dharma Discourses and Dialectical Spiritualism—he printed bumper stickers and hats for the traveling pickers. He printed millions of stickers on the Palace Press four-color press.

No other commercial printer would print these stickers, which featured images of the cartoon character Snoopy, and many other stickers with copyrighted names and logos of professional and college football and baseball teams. This was illegal and no other printer would print these images without paying royalties to the copyright owners, but Sundarakar printed them anyway, to help build New Vrindaban into a holy place of pilgrimage in the West and spread Krishna consciousness throughout the land.

Sundarakar in prison. But on May 24, 1990, a federal grand jury returned an eleven-count indictment charging Kirtanananda Swami Bhaktipada with racketeering: conspiring to murder, running a fraudulent charity scam, mail fraud, and the kidnapping of Hayagriva’s eldest son in 1979. Also named in the indictment were Terry Sheldon (Tapahpunja); Steven Fitzpatrick (Sundarakar); New Vrindaban Community, Inc.; Govardhan, Inc. (also known as the Govardhan Dairy, Inc.); and the Cathedral of Healing, Inc.

Sundarakar was convicted on the racketeering charges, printing copyrighted images and logos without paying royalties to the copyright owners. He spent some time in prison. The New Vrindaban sankirtan leader, Dharmatma dasa (Dennis Gorrick), also spent a year in prison for copyright infringement, and Tapahpunja (Terry Sheldon) was imprisoned for five years due to his involvement in the 1985-1986 conspiracy to murder Sulochan dasa (Steven Bryant). Bhaktipada was confined to house arrest for two years.

However at great expense, Harvard University professor attorney Alan Dershowitz presented oral arguments in Bhaktipada’s defense before a three-judge panel of the 13th Circuit Court in Charleston, South Carolina on June 18, 1992. Attorneys for Tapahpunja Swami and Sundarakar also presented their arguments. On July 1, 1993, the Fourth U. S. Circuit Court of Appeals in Richmond, Virginia overturned the 1991 Martinsburg West Virginia conviction on the basis of irrelevant testimony being introduced which may have swayed the jury.

After being discharged from prison, Sundarakar moved back to his home state, Vermont, and lived in a picturesque small town of about 1,200 people: Townshend, set amongst the rural hills, mountains, rivers and meadows in the southeast corner of the Green Mountain State. I believe Townshend is where he was born and raised.

Years later, I sent Sundarakar (and others) a copy of my obituary for Swami Bhaktipada by email. (You can read my obituary at The Myth and the Man.) Sundarakar responded:

Sundarakar (Stephen Fitzpatrick) at Palace Press. Photo from Brijabasi Spirit (March 1984).


Krishna Chandra dasa

Krishna Chandra dasa (Curtis Humphreys) was educated and intellectual, and he had a dry sense of humor. He was tall and heavy set, and played football in high school. In a letter to Bhaktipada, he explained, “In the past I have acted like a pig, and even idolized a pigskin football, but scoring touchdowns does not compare to offering one flower at your lotus feet. When the foolish noise of the crowd subsides, the scores and heroes of the game are soon forgotten after so much time and anxiety. But realizations of eternity and the gates of heaven open by sincere service to you. I pray that someday I may become qualified to offer some little service to please you or assist you in completing your mission. Although my youth has been destroyed in mindless pursuits for self-aggrandizement, I am still hoping that somehow I will muster up the sincerity to attempt this Bhakti Yoga process of love of Krishna.” [Endnote 111]

Curtis came to New Vrindaban in 1981, and took diksa late in 1982 or early in 1983. I liked him a lot. One summer morning, while doing The Pick in Maine, we parked our van in an empty beach parking lot. We were sitting in our van chanting our rounds, minding our own business, when a convertible car pulled into the parking lot, and stopped in front of us. A young man was driving, and a young woman sat in the passenger seat.

He asked us, “You guys want a blow job? Only twenty dollars!”

I was speechless. This was totally unexpected. But Krishna Chandra didn’t miss a beat. He responded immediately, “No thanks. We’re celibate monks!’

The fellow drove off in hopes, I assume, of finding more agreeable customers.

Krishna Chandra and I traveled to California in June 1982 to work the 82nd annual U. S. Open Golf Tournament which was held at Pebble Beach Golf Course in Monterey County. Opened in 1919, Pebble Beach Golf Links has been described as one of the most beautiful golf courses in the world. It hugs the rugged California coastline, and has gorgeous views of the Pacific Ocean. Golf Digest magazine selected it as the number one golf course in America. Greens fees are among the highest in the world. When Krishna Chandra and I worked this event, Tom Watson—the number one player in the world according to McCormack’s World Golf Rankings, won the tournament, two strokes ahead of runner-up Jack Nicklaus.

During our 1982 trip to California, Krishna Chandra and I also worked the fourth annual Gilroy Garlic Festival during the last weekend of July. It is billed as a celebration of tasty garlicky food, live entertainment, cooking competitions, and community pride. Gilroy is a city in Santa Clara County in the midst of California’s Central Valley agricultural region, located thirty miles south of San Jose. Gilroy is regarded as “The Garlic Capital of the World.” Every year, 100 million pounds of garlic are produced in this region. During our breaks from picking, Krishna Chandra and I tasted some of the vegetarian delicacies sold by vendors, such as garlic French fries, and the famous garlic-infused ice cream.

In addition to picking, Krishna Chandra also served as a teacher at New Vrindaban’s school for boys. He appears in a photograph taken at the dedication of New Nandagram at Wilson Valley in November 1982.

Swami Bhaktipada, teachers—including headmaster Sri-Galim (Gary Gardner)—and students at the gala open house festival at New Nandagram (c. November 1982). Krishna Chandra appears on the far right, cleaning his eye glasses.

Some years later, perhaps in 1986, when I returned to New Vrindaban for one of our monthly three-day sankirtan festivals, I noticed Krishna Chandra was gone. I inquired about him, and I was told, “Krishna Chandra went nuts. I think he stopped taking his meds. He disappeared one day from the gurukula. We found him naked in the woods. He had painted his genitals blue. After that, we took him to the Wheeling Greyhound bus station.”

I was quite surprised. He always seemed so level headed. I had no idea he took medications for psychosis.


Kumar dasa

Craig M. Thompson grew up in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, and first visited New Vrindaban in 1977 or early in 1978. He took diksa and the name Kumar dasa at a Christmas Day fire sacrifice at the Bahulaban temple in 1978. In a homage published in Bhaktipada’s 1983 Vyasa Puja book, Kumar remembered the first time he met his spiritual master, Kirtanananda Maharaja:

Kumar dasa and Bhaktipada, in the New Vrindaban Mold Shop. Photo from Bhaktipada’s Vyasa Puja book (September 6, 1982).

I went out on The Pick with Kumar for about a month, I think in 1981. We worked supermarket and department store parking lots mostly in the states in Bhaktipada’s GBC zone. Kumar was not a big picker, and didn’t want to be out on the road living in a van. Within a short time, he moved back to New Vrindaban permanently and took charge of the Mold Shop located on the first floor of the utility building at Bahulaban. Soon after, he started the New Vrindaban-based company Desire Tree which manufactured and sold cultured marble deities and altars to ISKCON temples, and to devotees and Life Members around the world.

The Mold Shop was created a few years earlier by Sudhanu dasa (George Weisner), who was originally from Newark, New Jersey. He took diksa in Boston (July 1971). Sudhanu explained how the cast pieces in the Mold Shop were created for Prabhupada’s Palace of Gold, “First Srila Bhaktipada and I would consult on an idea for an architectural mold. Then I’d carve a model from clay, wood, glass, or marble; we even used plastic sometimes and from the model I’d design a production mold out of rubber or fiberglass. Then the casting could begin, mostly in concrete for the Palace. On the average the whole process took from three to five weeks. Of course, a piece with many components would take longer. The central ornament inside the main dome, with 4,200 separate cast pieces. took months to create.” [Endnote 112]

When Kumar and I went out on The Pick, he had digestive difficulties during our first week on the road. For a few hours daily, he’d get a belly ache from gas pains. Finally, he realized what was creating his discomfort and he chastised me, “Hrishikesh, you don’t know how to cook our kitchari properly! You’re supposed to SOAK THE MUNG BEANS IN WATER OVERNIGHT!”

At the time, I did not know I was supposed to soak the beans overnight. I just added the dry beans into the pot with the rice, and when the water boiled away, I’d serve the kitchari. Eating half-cooked beans didn’t bother me too much, although it gave me gas. Yes, the kitchari was crunchier than Tapahpunja’s kitchari, but I thought it was alright. In any case, after Kumar notified me of the correct way to prepare dried beans, I dutifully began soaking the beans overnight before cooking, and Kumar’s digestive problems were relieved.

As I recall, Kumar and his wife Sita Love (Shannon) separated in 1993. Kumar moved back to his hometown of Pittsburgh Pennsylvania and established himself as a professional photographer. His website is Craig Thompson Photography. In 1993 I hired him to take some photos of me for my A Classical Christmas CD cover, and also in 1996 and 1998 when I performed with the Pittsburgh Symphony Orchestra. Craig’s wife remained at New Vrindaban with her two sons for another decade or so. Their oldest son and my son were about the same age, and the boys sometimes played together in my back yard in North Fayette Township, Pennsylvania.

Shannon remarried on October 10, 2015. I played the pipe organ for her wedding ceremony, which was held at Old St. Luke’s Church in Carnegie, Pennsylvania.

Craig Thompson, Facebook photo (posted April 27, 2018).


Narasimha Guru dasa

As mentioned earlier, my first sankirtan trip to New Jersey was with my godbrother Narasimha Guru dasa (Martin Lyons), originally from England (b. December 1954). He left home in 1976 at the age of 21 and hitchhiked across Europe and Asia to India, where he wanted to find his gurus, and discover the universal truths that transcend culture and creed. He wanted to become a yogi. He lived for three-and-a-half years in ashrams and in a cave along the Ganges River. He took sannyasa from a Hindu mystic yogi and developed some powers of Shakti. The Sanskrit word Shakti refers to the primordial cosmic energy, power or sacred life force as described in Hindu and yogic philosophy. Martin met Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada at Kumbh Mela in January 1977, but he did not take diksa at the time. In the summer of 1978, Martin began living at the ISKCON Krishna Balaram Mandir in Vrindaban.

Martin, the mystic yogi. Photo from NarasinghaSpeaker.com

During a June 18, 2026 phone conversation, Narasimha told me about meeting Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada:

The Kumbh Mela, meaning “Festival of the Sacred Pitcher,” is world’s largest spiritual gathering, attracting millions of devotees, ascetics, and seekers. Narasimha continued:

Although Martin felt he had been defeated by Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada, he did not immediately reject his own mystic yogi gurus. In time, however, he became attracted to the Bhakti Yoga process, and in mid-1978 he went to Vrindaban where he stayed at the Krishna Balarama ISKCON Mandir. By this time, Prabhupada had passed away, and Martin wondered who, amongst the eleven ISKCON gurus, should he request diksa from. In a Vyasa Puja homage to Kirtanananda Swami Bhaktipada, he explained how he chose his spiritual master:

Martin requested diksa from Kirtanananda Maharaja, and became Narasimha Guru dasa in Vrindaban India in March 1979, shortly before the big Gaura Purnima festival. I remember when my godbrother Narasimha Guru first came to New Vrindaban, shortly before the Palace dedication in September 1979. He was a talkative, but likeable fellow, in my opinion. Narasimha Guru admitted this in his homage published in Bhaktipada’s 1981 Vyasa Puja book: “I am a bumbling fool, loud-mouthed and falsely proud and without anything to offer you.”

About a year after Narasimha Guru arrived at New Vrindaban, in 1980, I trained him up on The Pick and Dharmatma sent us to New Jersey. We very quickly discovered that the people in New Jersey did not respond favorably to the mantras which we used to get donations from Ohio and West Virginia people.

New Jersey was a happening place, with lots of excitement. People were always in a hurry. Going here and going there. They did not want to stop and talk to us. In the mid-west on the other hand, the atmosphere was more laid back. People were not in such a hurry. They wouldn’t mind chatting with a stranger. But not in New Jersey. I think we only stayed there a week or two, before heading back to New Vrindaban.

The one thing I remember from our trip to New Jersey was Narasimha Guru’s porridge. Instead of kitchari, he made this rich English porridge, like oatmeal, but thick and heavy with large quantities of cream and butter and brown sugar. I thought it was delicious. After eating such a heavy breakfast, sometimes it was difficult to rev up into gear and hop out of the van and hit up potential donors.

This photo appears in Bhaktipada’s Vyasa Puja book (September 5, 1983). It shows the recently-initiated sannyasi, Tapahpunja Swami, offering obeisances to his siksa guru, while Bhaktipada, it seems, chastises him, giving mirth to all. My godbrother Narasimha Guru is the man with black hair right above Bhaktipada.

Others in the photo include: (left to right) Kardama (wearing Palace baseball cap), Acharya (behind rope), Nityodita, Syamakunda, Janmastami (holding black bead bag), Visvadika devi dasi, Vedavyasa (facing left), Dayavira (wearing baseball cap), Naranarayana (from Quebec), Mahabuddhi (Randy Stein, the Palace Manager), and (seated): Dayasara from Australia, Narada Muni (Lenny Rader, manager of Vrindaban Village Estates), Kuladri (New Vrindaban Temple President), and Kumar.

A year after we went out on The Pick together, in 1981, Narasimha Guru was betrothed to marry a young eleven-year-old New Vrindaban girl. I will not mention her name here. At the time, New Vrindaban authorities, following Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada’s instruction that young girls should marry older men, ordered him to marry the daughter of one of New Vrindaban’s big female pickers. The girl’s mother was a Prabhupada disciple who received diksa from Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada during his September 1972 visit to New Vrindaban. As far as I know, she did not oppose the marriage of her daughter, as she understood her spiritual master’s instructions that girls ideally should be married before they reach puberty.

The girl was born c. 1970 and her mother brought her to live at New Vrindaban at the age of two years or so. Since her mother was a big sankirtan picker and only visited the community once a month for three days, the girl lived in the girl’s ashram. The girl received diksa from Bhaktipada at the September 5, 1981 Palace Festival. One of my gurukula alumnus friends, who was initiated at the same fire sacrifice, said she was already betrothed to Narasimha Guru when she received diksa. At the time, Narasimha Guru was 27 years of age. Despite the great age disparity, Narasimha was, however, in good company, as nearly sixty years earlier, Abhay Charan De (Prabhupada) himself, at the age of 21 or 22, had married an eleven-year-old Indian girl.

The couple were sent to Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, where Narasimha managed New Vrindaban’s vegetarian restaurant. As I recall, it was located on a side street off Forbes Avenue not far from the University of Pittsburgh and Carnegie Mellon University. Many university students rented apartments in that neighborhood. Narasimha’s marriage was short, thankfully, but the poor girl was traumatized, for life it seems.

One of my gurukula alumnus friends told me, “She told me her husband used to slap her around because she wouldn’t have sex with him. It’s hard to get these ladies to talk about those traumatic times, even in private. Understandably, they carry a lot of shame and guilt and don’t like being reminded of those experiences.” [Endnote 114]

In August 2021, when I was working on my forthcoming book, Gold, Guns and God: Vol. 4, Deviations in the Dhama, I wrote to this young lady and asked if she would tell me her story for this volume. She responded a month later in the negative, but kindly explained that she was not yet ready to unravel all the scars and details of her past just yet. For her, opening up that box is not just a conversation and then it’s done. The memories haunt her and re-traumatize her in many ways. She told me the last time she remembered those times at New Vrindaban, she cried all morning and it crashed her for weeks.

She also mentioned that some unscrupulous people have quoted her, misquoted her, and took things out of context for the sake of shock entertainment. She did not accuse me of belonging in this category, but she explained that she has become aware of the jackals that live by the misfortunes of others, and has gradually become more guarded. She doesn’t want to become a part of the entertainment industry, which results in nothing being done, except people are shocked. She said she’s left with a can of worms that she doesn’t want to open.

She concluded by wishing me well for having the courage to write what everyone else is afraid to write about. She said she was sorry that she did not want to be quoted or written about in my book, but one day when she’s ready to share, she would. She needs that in the healing process. She also indicated that it’s not time yet to tell her story, but someday she would write her own book about her life as a child of New Vrindaban.

Her message revealed to me her beautiful heart and helped me understand the unfortunate predicament of many, many gurukula alumni. It’s like a wound that never fully heals; the pain may dissipate for days or months or even years, but as soon as the wound is irritated, the pain returns. Hence they try not to remember those times.

A few years after my godbrother’s failed marriage to an eleven-year-old, Narasimha Guru married an attractive, slender, adult Bhaktipada disciple, Kinkini devi dasi (Kelly Lyons). They moved to a college town, Athens, Ohio and managed the New Vrindaban satellite center near Ohio University. Bhaktipada named their first child Jalebi, a popular South Asian sweet made from a fermented flour batter deep-fried into crispy, pretzel-like spirals and then soaked in a sweet, fragrant sugar syrup, often flavored with saffron or cardamom. The dessert is known for its crunchy exterior and juicy, syrupy interior. After a time, the family moved back to New Vrindaban.

Our housewarming party.

On July 16, 1992, my wife and I hosted a housewarming party to celebrate: 1) the completion of the interior repairs and renovations on our home, 2) the installation of our Radha Vrindaban Nathabar deities, and 3) the fourth birthday of our daughter Sunita. Our son, Siddhartha, had been born three weeks earlier. My wife’s parents, Mahaprabhu dasa (Rama Krishna Maheshwari) and Palika devi dasi (Puspalata Malpani Maheshwari), visited us from Bombay and stayed for about a month.

My wife and I lived in the house right across the street from the temple, formerly known as the Gray House where Prabhupada had lived when he visited New Vrindaban during the summer of 1976. Varshan Swami and his team of heavy-equipment operators moved the house about a quarter mile down the hill and placed it right across the street from the new temple constructed in 1983. The house had been painted green. Shyama and I rented the house from the community for $175 per month. Fortunately it had electricity and indoor plumbing.

Unfortunately, the house was in bad shape. I had to make extensive repairs, as it had been abandoned for a year or two. I repaired holes in the sheet rock walls and then painted the walls a pastel saffron color. I rented an electric floor sander as the original hardwood floors had been painted an ugly black color. While the house was abandoned, wild animals, it seems, liked to pass urine on the floor just inside the front door. I sanded the floor by the front door many, many times, but the urine smell, which had permeated the oak wood floor, remained. I had to sand the floor by the door down an entire inch before the urine odor dissipated.

Shyama and I also purchased and repaired a broken altar from the Mold Shop, made from light-weight foam sprayed into a mold, and covered with silver plating. The altar had a lovely marble table top where the deities rested with a canopy over their heads. The altar must have been eight feet tall. We had acquired beautiful Radha Vrindaban Nathabar deities made from cultured marble about three feet tall. These deities were very dear to my wife, because her father had a pair of the same deities in his garage/temple at their home on 3rd Road in Khar, near the train station. As a young teenager, Shyama had been entrusted to care for those deities and she grew attached to them.

The original Radha Vrindaban Nathabar deities sculpted by Bhagavatananda dasa (Joseph Cappelletti). Photo from the cover of Brijabasi Spirit (September 1981).

I also purchased a two-foot-tall porcelain statue of the Infant of Prague. The infant Jesus of Prague is a famous 16th-century wax-coated wooden statue of the child Jesus. It is housed in the Church of Our Lady Victorious in Prague, Czech Republic and is revered by Catholics worldwide (especially Polish Catholics) for its reported miracles. When I was a boy living at 416 Riva Avenue in East Brunswick, New Jersey, our family had a little grotto at the end of the indoor hallway with a statue of the Infant of Prague.

The original statue in Prague is gorgeously dressed in embroidered silk garments with handmade lace, studded with gemstones, and embroidered with gold. The infant has 86 sets of clothes which are changed according to liturgical seasons and festivals. On his head is placed a crown. Some garments are made from heavy damask, richly woven with gold and embroidered with pearls. Some outfits were donated by Empress Maria Theresa (1717-1780), the sovereign of the Hapsburg Empire, and Emperor Ferdinand I of Austria (1793-1875).

As I grew up in a Polish-American Roman Catholic family, I had a fondness for the statue of child Jesus, and I placed it on our altar in our New Vrindaban home, alongside Radha Vrindaban Nathabar. At the time, Bhaktipada was stressing interfaith preaching and living, and my wife and I saw no harm in placing deities from Hindu and Catholic traditions on the same altar. Radhanath Swami came to our housewarming party as the guest celebrity and he officiated at the deity installation ceremony.

The original Infant of Prague.

Narasimha Guru gives me the sauce.

Soon after our housewarming party, my godbrother Narasimha Guru (who at the time worked as Bhaktipada’s personal gardener) entered our house early in the morning, maybe around 8 a. m., while I was sitting at our kitchen table eating breakfast. He sat down on a chair next to me and started criticising our home altar. He declared I was committing a great sin by placing a statue of Jesus of Nazareth on the same altar as Radha and Krishna. It was against Gaudiya-Vaishnava arcana principles and was rasa bhasa (incompatible rasas).

I was extremely annoyed. I just wanted to eat my oatmeal in peace, and my godbrother barges into my house and starts lecturing me! After that incident, when I saw Narasimha Guru approaching on the sidewalk or on the street, I avoided him by crossing over to the other side.

After Narasimha rejected Bhaktipada as his spiritual master a few years later, he and his wife moved to a rented house in Collier Township, near Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. They had three children. I taught piano to their youngest daughter, as at the time I also lived nearby in Collier Township.

The author and his piano student—Martin and Kelly’s youngest daughter—at their home in Collier Township, Pennsylvania (November 2000).

The couple were not good at balancing their budget, and within a year or two racked up a credit card debt of $100,000. I couldn’t understand how they managed to do that, as I always paid my credit card debts in full every month. After filing for bankruptcy, the debt was dissolved, along with their credit rating. I used to visit them frequently, as my son and Martin and Kelly’s son were about the same age, and the two boys liked to play together.

After some time, Kelly divorced her husband. Martin enrolled in a few classes in maintaining healthy relationships, and soon began organizing and hosting his own “Man/Woman” healthy relationship seminars during which he taught participants how to create a long-lasting and loving relationship with a member of the opposite sex. Our godbrother Trisanku dasa (Tom Sun) attended one of Martin’s seminars and thought it was worthwhile. I believe Martin learned a lot from reading the 1992 book by John Gray: Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus.

During one of his “Man/Woman” seminars, Martin had a fling with a student, an attractive, educated and cultured 25-year-old woman named Elizabeth, and she got pregnant. He was fifty. They decided to get married and raise their daughter together. The two rented a small house in Sewickley, Pennsylvania. I attended several parties at their home with my wife Mary Kay, along with my godbrothers Dasarath, Siksastaka, and their wives.

When Martin’s daughter became a teenager, Elizabeth divorced her husband. It seems many of my godbrothers (myself included) have not had great success in our long-term relationships with women. Around that time, Martin heard Bhaktivedanta Narayana Goswami Maharaja (1921-2010) speak, and became enamored of the elderly octogenarian Gaudiya Vaishnava guru. Martin took re-initiation from Narayana Maharaja in 2009 in Houston Texas, dropped the word “Guru” from his name, and became known simply as Narasimha dasa. I remember meeting Narasimha at a New Vrindaban festival, probably in 2009, and he encouraged me to take shelter of Bhaktivedanta Narayana Maharaja.

Today (2026) Narasimha lives in Houston Texas and preaches Bhakti Yoga. He has written one book, a novel titled Are We There Yet … and How Did We Get Here Anyway? He is currently working on his autobiography, titled The Indian Odyssey of an English Jew. His website is at NarasinghaSpeaker.com.

Narasimha. Photo from NarasinghaSpeaker.com


Jagannath Mishra dasa (James Michael Bulsa) (June 14, 1956-April 26, 2022) grew up in Parma, a suburb of Cleveland Ohio. Soon after graduating from Normandy High School in 1974, he left home, moved to California, and became a hippie. He told me he lived in a hollow redwood tree in the mountains near Santa Cruz. Once a week, James hitchhiked to the Santa Cruz pier, where he spent the day panhandling, begging donations from tourists. Then he’d purchase groceries and marijuana, and return to his hollow tree in the forest.

James was friends with Chakradhari (Charles St. Dennis), a Prabhupada disciple who lived in Santa Cruz and made his living by buying and selling recreational drugs near the pier. When James came to town, the two hung out together and smoked weed. Years later, James told me:

    Chakradhari was one of my buddies in Santa Cruz. He was the second devotee I met in California. I loved him; he was like a damn good buddy. Chakradhari and another devotee named Indra were probably the reason I came to New Vrindaban, or I would have stayed in California. He told me to go and live at New Vrindaban. He told me that New Vrindaban was a cool place and there was a pure devotee there: Kirtanananda Swami. He said that Prabhupada said so; Prabhupada said that Kirtanananda was a pure devotee. No material desires.

As an aside, Chakradhari came to New Vrindaban in 1980, but was murdered on June 10, 1983 by two New Vrindaban devotees. This is described in detail in two chapters from Gold, Guns and God, Vol. 4.

In 1978, James moved from Santa Cruz California to New Vrindaban West Virginia where he took diksa from Kirtanananda Swami during a Christmas Day 1978 fire sacrifice. Maharaja gave him the name Jagannath Mishra dasa. After working in the garden for a time, he became a traveling picker. He was a big picker. Mish and I served as picking partners for many months, and traveled across the country, to Maine, to California, and to New Jersey where we worked parking lots, shopping malls, concerts and sporting events. We sometimes spent nights at my parents’ home in East Brunswick. We had a good time together.

New Vrindaban Summer Festival at Prabhupada’s Palace. Jagannath Mishra stands next to Bhaktipada, with bare chest and right arm raised (c. early 1980s).


Others who I recognize are (from left to right): Unidentified devotee, Nara Narayan from Quebec, Jagannath Mishra, Radha Govinda from Quebec, Kirtanananda Swami Bhaktipada, Jyotirdhama ACBSP, two unidentified Indian devotees, the author, Kanina from Toronto.

At the Christmas Sankirtan Festival at New Vrindaban in 1981, Mish and I received “The Golden Van Award,” as we were the two highest-scoring pickers on the men’s parties for that year. Consequently, we were invited to accompany our spiritual master on a February-March 1982 trip to India to visit the ISKCON Hare Krishna temple at Juhu Beach in Bombay, and also attend the ISKCON Mayapur Festival in the Nadia District of Bengal which commemorated the 496th anniversary of Lord Chaitanya Mahaprabhu’s birth. Mish and I enjoyed hanging out with Bhaktipada in his suite in the guest lodge, massaging his feet, serving him, running little errands, etc. We thought this was the perfection of our lives.

Mish and I worked in Maine during the summer one year, I think in 1982. We were a good team. One Sunday the stores were closed—in those days some states had Blue Laws whereupon shopping centers were closed on Sundays—and so we decided to take a day off and go to the beach. The air temperature was warm, perhaps 80 degrees. We parked our van, changed into shorts and t-shirts, and started running towards the Atlantic Ocean. Maybe 50 people were sunning themselves on the beach, and perhaps a dozen people were swimming in the ocean, playing catch with beach balls and Frisbees, etc.

After running across the sandy beach, we ran into the North Atlantic Ocean, and we felt a shock of ice cold water on our feet and ankles. We got up to our knees and we started shivering. When the water reached our chests, we started to turn blue. My teeth were chattering. The water was freezing! We looked at each other with shocked expressions, and ran back through the water to the beach. We were truly amazed at the frigid temperature of the water, and we couldn’t understand how all those people were still up to their necks in the water, laughing and playing.

A little while later, I asked a young blond girl who was running the concession stand, “We think the water is freezing! We couldn’t even stay in for a minute! How can all those people in the water tolerate the ice-cold temperature?” She replied, “Oh, they think the water’s warm. They’re from Canada!”

Mish had a fondness for attractive young women, and he liked to charm the ladies on The Pick into giving him a donation, especially the young, attractive, sexy ladies who frequented high-end shopping malls on Friday nights. We both did big in the shopping malls, flirting with the single girls. Maybe we made $50 per hour. At this time we were only asking a dollar or two.

One time at the Paramus Park Shopping Mall in Paramus New Jersey, he told me that he had to go back out to our van and change his underwear. While hitting up an incredibly hot and sexy woman, he had an ejaculation, just standing there and talking to her. I guess he was an incredibly horny guy. I used to have nocturnal emissions at night, maybe twice or thrice a week, but never had an ejaculation when I was awake.

Mish possessed a fine appreciation for the female form. One of my godbrothers remembered:

New Vrindaban Summer Festival at Prabhupada’s Palace. Jagannath Mishra stands next to Bhaktipada. The African-American soon-to-be ISKCON guru Bhakti Tirtha Swami follows Bhaktipada (c. early 1980s).

In 1985, while Mish, Dasarath and I were doing The Pick in the San Francisco Bay Area, I heard the New Vrindaban temple president, Kuladri dasa, offer Mish a child bride. Mish replied, “I only want someone of drinking age.” In other words, “No child bride for me! If I’m gonna be married, I want an adult woman.” At the time, New Vrindaban administrators paired young teenage girls with adult men, as was recommended by the ISKCON Founder/Acharya. About a dozen girls married older men, including my sankirtan buddy Dasarath. None of the marriages lasted more than a year, although a few girls got pregnant.

I wrote about this pastime in an article, “Srila Bhaktipada In California,” which was published in the May 1985 issue of Brijabasi Spirit:

Despite Bhaktipada’s chastisement, Mish really loved his spiritual master, as did I. When Bhaktipada visited California, Mish, Dasarath and I followed him around everywhere he went, like small children follow a parent. At the end of our spiritual master’s visit, we followed Bhaktipada to the San Francisco International Airport, but his flight was delayed. I describe this pastime in “Srila Bhaktipada In California.”

A couple years after our California trip, Mish married Gandhari devi dasi (Frances Villemarie), an attractive adult French-Canadian Bhaktipada disciple, who also served on The Pick. But she eventually left him. My godbrother Damodar remembered, “He [Mish] was very frank and forward about the fact that his attraction to women constantly rattled his brain. When his first wife left him he became suicidal. He described to me the herbs he took to battle depression.”

After Mish left New Vrindaban in the late 1980s, he worked in construction and home remodeling. He moved around a lot. He lived for a time in Sanford, Florida, and in Van Nuys, California. In 2005 he lived in San Francisco and worked as a manager in a downtown hotel. He met a non-devotee French lady, Ann Marie, and got married. He visited France with her. Unfortunately, he got mugged and was beaten so severely that he lost his teeth. He was in the hospital for some time. His second wife, Ann Marie, also left him. Clearly he wasn’t having much luck with women.

Mish moved to Fort Lauderdale, where he did odd jobs in construction and home remodeling. I met him in Fort Lauderdale on April 26, 2011. He was homeless and living in his car, as construction work was slow at that time. He had no concept of how to save money. Whenever he got money, he spent it partying with his friends.

He used to call me on the phone about once a month. One time he asked me to loan him some money. I mailed him a money order for $400. It took him a year or two to pay me back, but eventually he paid me in full.

Three big former New Vrindaban pickers—Jagannath Mishra (James Bulsa), Compassionate (Rosalyn Fejes) and the author—enjoy a humorous moment during a reunion in Fort Lauderdale, Florida (April 26, 2011).

After struggling in Fort Lauderdale, Mish moved in with his younger brother Jeffrey, a geologist who owned a farm in Isonville, Kentucky. 31 years earlier, Jeffrey had established a company, JCB Downhole Vision, specializing in oil well site geology and mud logging services. For several years, from about 2011 to 2015, Mish lived in Isonville. Jeffrey gave him free room and board and an extremely generous allowance of $800 per month for doing a smattering of menial chores on his farm.

I talked to Mish usually once a month on the phone. He seemed to want me to validate his belief in Krishna, but I could not provide that to him. One time I mailed him a birthday present: a Cohiba Cuban cigar and a fifth of a bottle of Kentucky bourbon. I didn’t know his brother was paying him $800 per month.

Jeffrey later claimed Mish once ate a piece of fried chicken. Jeffrey told me, “Jimmy’s health was not good; he was skinny and sometimes sickly. I encouraged him to see a dentist and get his teeth fixed, and I volunteered to pay for it, but he refused. I told him his health would improve if he ate some meat instead of that Krishna vegetarian diet. Once he ate a piece of chicken right off my dinner plate. I told him: Jimmy, just let me know ahead of time and I’ll fix you up a piece of chicken too!”

When profits from Jeffrey’s company began to decline, he sold his Kentucky farm in 2018 and moved north, back to Ohio. Mish moved south, to the New Raman Reti ISKCON community in Alachua Florida, because he was a Krishna devotee at heart. He got a job with room and board working for a wealthy former disciple of Satsvarupa dasa Goswami from New York named Krishna Bhakta dasa.

Mish served as gardener and keeper of the cows on Krishna Bhakta’s expansive estate. Mish told me his employer was always late in paying him. I knew Krishna Bhakta when he lived with me and other brahmacharis c. 1984-1985 in the basement of Adwaita's New Vrindaban satellite center at 1025 Manhattan Avenue in Greenpoint, Brooklyn, a Polish and Latino neighborhood.

Mish passed away on July 30, 2022 in Alachua. He had been depressed for a long time. His body was discovered hanging from a rafter with a noose around his neck. The county sheriff declined to conduct an investigation, as it looked like Mish had killed himself. A devotee who knew Mish in Alachua reported, “I believe he took his own life because he was experiencing health issues and he did not think he would get the support he would need. And I do not believe the community was ready and able to help him with his issues,” as noted at Krishna1008 Blogspot.

Damodar and I posted some of our memories of Mish at Dandavats.com.


Nityodita dasa, ACBSP (Carlos Ordonez, b. April 8, 1953) went to Kenmore East High School in Tonawanda New York, a suburb of Buffalo. Nityo explained how he came to New Vrindaban in a homage he wrote for Bhaktipada’s Vyasa Puja book:

Bhakta Carlos took diksa at New Vrindaban in August 1975 and became Nityodita dasa. When I first came to New Vrindaban, he served under Atmabhu Swami in Palace construction. He was a fired-up brahmachari and lived at the Old Vrindaban Brahmachari Ashram. Nityo was featured in an article by Dravida dasa, “The People Who Built the Palace,” published in the July 1981 issue of Back To Godhead.

As I recall, after the Palace dedication in September 1979, Bhaktipada sent Nityo (and many others, including me) out on The Pick. He was a big picker, and he was also organized. The two qualities do not always go together. Muktakesh was a big picker, but he was not very organized. I don’t recall that Mukta ever served as a party leader. But Nityo had organizational skills, so he served as a party leader.

Sometimes Nityo served as Bhaktipada’s personal servant when Bhaktipada traveled overseas. In a 1985 Vyasa Puja homage, Nityo wrote, “Although you have let me tag along with you on our overseas preaching tours, I haven’t been a good servant. In Delhi, this year, you asked me to tie up one trunk. After watching my clumsy efforts for a few minutes you declared, ‘You are useless!’ Then you bent over and proceeded to expertly tie up the trunk yourself. You concluded, ‘No, not exactly useless, but you’re only good on sankirtan!’”

During the March/February 1982 GBC meetings, the GBC put Nityo on a one year waiting list to be given sannyasa in 1983. Nityo did not accept the honor until 1986. Once during a darshan broadcast on the speakers in the New Vrindaban temple room, Bhaktipada said Nityo was “a pain in the ass.” [Endnote 116]

Nityo on The Pick, photo from Brijabasi Spirit, Vol. 10, No. 5 (September 1983). Photo enhanced and colorized by AI.

Nityo was one of the first New Vrindaban men’s collectors to work in California. California was a dangerous place for New Vrindaban pickers, because the California ISKCON devotees hated us. Factually, nearly all ISKCON devotees in the United States and Canada hated us, because we went into their zones without permission. The ISKCON Governing Body Commission wanted all the different temples in different zones to cooperate. After all, Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada allegedly said, “After my demise, your love for me will be demonstrated by how you cooperate together.” But we at New Vrindaban thought we were the only temple which followed Prabhupada’s orders strictly. Some of the other ISKCON acharyas had fallen down from their sannyasa vows, but we believed Bhaktipada would never fall from his vows. He was a pure devotee, and Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada had said so, more than once.

So we boldly went were no one had gone before, into other zones. Of course, we had to sneak around a bit. We never visited the temples in other zones, lest they would see us. But we worked their events. Dharmatma told us to “Blast away!” Bhaktipada even had a vanity license plate made which read: “Easy Journey to Other Zones.”

When Nityo first worked in the Los Angeles area, he worked a big event, maybe a NASCAR race. But the Los Angeles pickers saw him and his partner working the parking lot. As I heard the story, the Los Angeles pickers requested a New Dwaraka Ksatriya Enforcer (Ksatriya means “warrior”) to find the New Vrindaban van and teach us a lesson. It probably wasn’t all that difficult, as there weren’t many vehicles in the parking lot with West Virginia license plates, and it was always easy to spot a sankirtan devotee van: they always had bananas or some other fruit on the dashboard. When the Los Angeles Ksatriya discovered our New Vrindaban van, he slashed our tires. After the event, Nityo had to go out and purchase four new tires at considerable expense.

As Nityo and I were both party leaders, we rarely got to serve on the same party. But once, Dharmatma sent Nityo, Jagannath Mishra and myself to California. I was given the job of party leader. Both Nityo and Mish were big pickers, which is why we got sent to California. Dharmatma kept the less-experienced pickers close to home. We drove all the way to California.

I respected Nityo, although I didn’t always agree with him. I think he (mostly) respected me, even though he was a Prabhupada disciple and my senior. I think we had only one conflict during our two months on the road together. Devotees in California didn’t get to return to New Vrindaban once a month, because of the great distance involved. We returned only after two or three months.

I remember the incident: I was driving our van through the streets of Los Angeles, probably on our way to an event. We had just finished chanting our rounds, and to save time, Nityo—the official cook for our party—squatted in the back of the van cooking up a pot of kitchari. Unfortunately, the traffic on the city street was stop and go. I had to stop at many red lights. This made it extremely difficult for Nityo to keep the pot of boiling water on the camp stove from sliding off the stove and spilling all over. He angrily chastised me a couple times and admonished me to drive more carefully. However, I felt I WAS driving carefully! Sometimes due to traffic, I had to put on the brakes from time to time and stop short.

Nityo only chastised me twice. The third time, Nityo saved the pot from spilling, but he was so pissed that he picked up a full gallon water jug and poured it over my head, while I was driving. It took about 15 seconds to empty, splashing on my head and dripping down my neck, shirt, chest, back and eventually soaking my pants. When the jug was empty, I was sitting in a gallon of water on the van seat.

I could tell of course that Nityo was angry at me, but I also knew that he was raring for a fight, so I wisely kept my mouth shut. I accepted his chastisement in silence. It appeared that Nityo was disappointed that I didn’t raise hell, and he smirked, “Hrishikesh thinks he’s SO SMART! He just keeps his mouth shut.” It wasn’t a big deal for me. I’m normally a tolerant person. It takes a lot to get me angry. When we arrived at our destination, I just pulled my duffel bag out from under the wooden van bench, and changed into dry clothes.

Another time while we were working in California, in the San Francisco Bay Area, on the East Bay, we worked a big Kmart parking lot. Nityo and Mish worked outside in the parking lot, and I blitzed up the inside of the store. We gave people citations, passed out bumper stickers and requested $5.00 donations. The following story, which reveals Nityo’s boldness, appears in Gold, Guns and God, Vol. 4:

Nityo, Mish and I traveled extensively during our Far West tour. In addition to working California, we drove to Boise, Idaho, where we worked a July 7, 1983 concert at the BSU Pavilion on the campus of Boise State University featuring Loverboy, and Joan Jett and the Blackhearts. The following evening we worked a Kenny Loggins concert at the same venue.

A month later, we drove to the newly-opened B. C. Place Stadium in Vancouver, British Columbia, and worked the August 9, 1983 David Bowie concert, during his worldwide “Serious Moonlight Tour.” 54,000 fans attended the sold-out event. We didn’t do well, however, as we got nipped by security early on.

Poster for David Bowie’s performance at B. C. Place.

Nityo became a Swami at a New Vrindaban fire sacrifice on June 4, 1986. I got married at the same fire sacrifice. I heard that Bhaktipada had issued him an ultimatum, “Either you take sannyasa, or get married.” Nityo apparently decided that he’d suffer less as a sannyasi than a grhastha.

Years later, in the late 1990s or early 2000s, Nityo renounced his sannyasa title and married a pretty, dark-skinned Hindu girl, Radha devi dasi, from Trinidad. He purchased some property right on Palace Road, and built an enormous house with money, I heard, from working on The Pick. We called it “Nityo’s Palace.” I attended his big house-warming party. I recall the prasadam was superb. There was lots of kirtan.

For a long time, Nityo supported himself by working The Pick, but since signing a contract with the gas fracking company, I assume he doesn’t need to go out on the road so often. In November 2025, one of my New Vrindaban friends sold Nityo some Buckeye stickers and hats at a rock-bottom price, so my guess is that Nityo still goes out, at the age of 73, to do The Pick now and then.

Nityodita Swami (c. 1990)


Damodar dasa

Allen White was born in San Francisco on August 28, 1954. Just before his tenth birthday, in 1964 his family moved to St. Paul, Minnesota. In high school he began exploring spiritual paths, such as Scientology. During his freshman year in college, Allen received initiation into Maharishi Mahesh Yogi’s Transcendental Meditation and began silently chanting his mantra twice a day. Soon he began attending functions hosted by the Divine Light Mission, and later on, The Himalayan Institute. The elders at the Himalayan Institute gave him the name Dinesh, which they said was his correct name according to astrological calculation.

Dinesh and his older sister contracted to drive a car from Minnesota to California. She wanted to get away from her overly-controlling mother. Dinesh dropped her off in the San Francisco Bay area, and he headed south to deliver the car. From there, he hitchhiked across Southern California visiting various ashrams. During his travels, he visited the Los Angeles ISKCON temple during a Sunday feast, and he was impressed. He moved into the ISKCON ashram in February 1978. For a while he worked in the accounting office, where he counted the collections of the sankirtan devotees. After a while, temple authorities insisted that he go out on sankirtan. Dinesh recalled, “If I collected $27, that was a good day for me.”

Dinesh decided that book distribution was not the life for him, so he planned to move to the New Vrindaban ISKCON farm in rural West Virginia. After a few months, he saved enough money to purchase a plane ticket to Pittsburgh. He arrived in New Vrindaban on September 5, 1978. Dinesh explained, “I remember the date, because I arrived at New Vrindaban just in time for the festival honoring the divine appearance day of the ISKCON spiritual master there: Kirtanananda Maharaja. I remember seeing a banner: September 5th—The Most Blessed Event: the Appearance Day of His Divine Grace Kirtanananda Swami Maharaja.

Five months later, in February 1979, Bhakta Dinesh, as he was known at New Vrindaban, volunteered to move to the New Vrindaban satellite center in Columbus Ohio to learn how to collect money on sankirtan. Dinesh explained, “I didn’t fit in at New Vrindaban, and wanted to find a place where I felt I belonged.” A month later, Dinesh became Damodar dasa at a fire sacrifice on Gaura Purnima (March 13, 1979) at the Bahulaban temple. Damodar explained, “I was never a big picker, but I served on traveling sankirtan for several years.”

As noted earlier, Damodar and I went out on The Pick in California in December 1984. I always enjoyed his company. I found him to be a thoughtful person, on the quiet side, but at times, unexpectantly jovial.

For a time in the mid- or late-1980s, Damodar served as the temple president for the New Vrindaban satellite centers in Columbus and Cleveland, Ohio. On October 11, 1987, Damodar married a Prabhupada disciple, Gopalasyapriya devi dasi (Dian Alpert White) (b. November 18, 1954). She is from Livonia, Michigan and was a big picker for New Vrindaban in the 1970s and 1980s. I played the recently-installed Möller pipe organ at the New Vrindaban temple during their wedding ceremony.

Soon after the September 6, 1993 Winnebago Incident which split the New Vrindaban Community into two factions—those who supported Bhaktipada and those who wanted Bhaktipada removed as leader of New Vrindaban—Damodar challenged the leaders of the pro-Bhaktipada faction, PK Swami, RVC Swami and Bhakti Rasa Swami in an open letter:

    When we split from ISKCON [in 1987], there were no less than one hundred times when Bhaktipada slammed his fist down and condemned their philosophy that no one could be like Prabhupada. “They just want to go on with their sinning!” he would scream from his vyasasana. “Be ye perfect as your father in heaven is perfect!” Yet now, we hear “He’s only human, nobody is perfect, anyone with a material body can fall,” echoing around the dhama in his defense. One of you took it a step further by saying that there was no reason to necessarily believe that Prabhupada was perfect. This will surely lend to questions about the whole disciplic succession until finally in the worst case scenario it will be, “After all, Lord Chaitanya was constantly embracing other men.”

Damodar also served as New Vrindaban’s temple president from 1996 to 1998. Today (June 2026), Damodar still lives at New Vrindaban with his wife, Gopalasyapriya.

Damodar and his wife Gopalasyapriya devi dasi ACBSP (Dian Alpert White) on vacation at Little Beach, Makena State Park, Maui, Hawaii (c. 2009). From Gopa’s Facebook page.

Damodar and the author at Old St. Luke’s Church, Carnegie, Pennsylvania, for the wedding of our godsister Shannon (October 10, 2015).

The author (center) with former New Vrindaban resident Shannon (Sita) and current resident Allen White (Damodar) at West Virginia University, Morgantown (February 19, 2026).


Bhaktisiddhanta dasa

Bhaktisiddhanta dasa (William Crockett) was one of our biggest pickers. He came to New Vrindaban after 1982 sometime. He was a staunch brahmachari and followed all the regulative principles strictly, I believe. I don’t think we ever went out together, at least I don’t remember going out with him. This is to be expected, because he was a party leader, and I was also a party leader.

He was one of the first to do big doing hats, instead of stickers, at sporting events. He became a bigger picker than me. In 1988, Bhaktipada awarded him with the title Swami and he became known as Bhaktisiddhanta Swami.

One of New Vrindaban’s biggest pickers, Bhaktisiddhanta dasa (William Crockett) in his sankirtan van.

Bhaktisiddhanta counts his daily Laksmi points.


Muktakesh dasa, ACBSP

Ronald Burstein was born on November 8, 1947, and grew up in a Jewish family in Buffalo, New York. His father was a dentist, and the devotees considered the family wealthy. As a young man, Ronald got addicted to heroin. However, when he joined ISKCON and moved into the ashram he was able to kick his habit, due to the extremely regulated life of a Krishna devotee living in the temple. His wife recalled, “He had a heroin addiction before joining the movement, he managed to stay clean for years, but when he went out in the world on The Pick he fell again into temptation.”

Ronald was initiated in March 1974, and received the name Muktakesh dasa. Mukta’s brother Larry became Lokavarnattama nine months earlier during a June 1973 fire sacrifice. Both brothers excelled at book distribution and rapidly became known as Maharathis: big guns. In 1975, Buffalo became part of Kirtanananda’s GBC Zone, and both brothers developed a strong relationship with New Vrindaban, and eventually relocated there to West Virginia when the Buffalo temple and farm was disbanded.

As noted earlier, I first met Mukta in 1979 at the Chicago Pope Pick. He was one of New Vrindaban’s biggest collectors and I admired him and tried to follow in his footsteps. I only went out on The Pick with Mukta a handful of times. Once in 1981, I worked the parking lots and malls with him in Bhaktipada’s zone, I think Ohio. I served as party leader. Another time, in 1985, Mukta and I were stationed at the 1025 Manhattan Avenue New Vrindaban satellite center. We worked the Pathmark shopping center lots in Brooklyn.

During our Ohio adventure, on the first or second day out, Mukta suggested something, I don’t remember what. Actually he didn’t suggest, he insisted. I think it was related to finding a place to do The Pick. I didn’t think it was a good idea, but Mukta insisted. He had a very big voice and a stubborn nature and I fell under his influence. I thought to myself, “Well, Mukta is an experienced picker. He joined ISKCON maybe five years before me. He’s got more experience. Maybe I should try his suggestion, although my gut feeling is to reject his idea.”

Against my natural inclination, I followed Mukta’s advice, and the plan ended terribly. I wish I could remember the details, but whatever it was that he suggested we do, it was a wash out. A total waste of time. That was the last time I followed Mukta’s advice. From that time on, I trusted my own judgement, and our increased picking results justified my personal intuition.

Mukta marries.

Around 1981, Mukta married a big sankirtan devotee, Lilamrita devi dasi (b. September 16, 1956). Her legal name is Kay Louisa Mathers and she took diksa from Bhaktipada at a fire sacrifice at New Vrindaban during the December 1980 festival for Lord Nrsimhadeva. My godsister remembered her introduction to Krishna consciousness and her marriage to Mukta:

    I was born and raised in New Zealand. I went to Ngaruawahia High School and graduated in 1973. Soon after, I went to Hamilton Teachers Training College and Waikato University and graduated after three years in 1977 with a Teaching Certificate and a Diploma in Education. I could have gone on to finish a Bachelor’s Degree, but instead I got a job and went to work at Omanu Primary School on the east coast, a five-minute walk from the Pacific Ocean. It was a one-year placement, after which I got a job at Pillans Point School in Tauranga.

    My roommate Paul Heeney and I decided to take two years off from work and take a trip around the world, starting with Australia and Indonesia. Then we went on to Sri Lanka, where we parted ways, as I wanted to go to the Maldives with an Australian girl I met travelling. A decision I cherish to this day, for the adventures I had there.

    Then I went on to India, where I met Shyamakunda (Gregory Detamore) from New Vrindaban at a guest house in New Delhi. He told me about Krishna; he was my introduction to Krishna, although I already had a book by Srila Prabhupada, which was given to me at the Bhagwan Rajneesh ashram.

    After India, I went on to Nepal, and then to Europe, where I got a job in London, as I needed to replenish my funds. I next flew to New York and met up with some friends in New Jersey that were going to the Rainbow Festival in West Virginia.

The Rainbow Gathering is an annual event which takes place in a different United States National Forest each year. Rainbow Family Tribe men and women are unconventional, loosely-knit communities of people who share an ideology of peace, harmony, freedom, and respect. Most are influenced by the 1960s counterculture and the non-commercial rock festivals of the late 1960s and early 1970s, such as the August 1969 Woodstock Festival on Max Yasgur’s dairy farm in Bethel, New York. The group operates without formal leadership and chooses new locations annually.

They are a remnant, in my opinion, of the 1960s hippie movement. They attempted to create what they believed was a more satisfying culture—free from consumerism, capitalism, and mass media—one that would be non-hierarchical, that would further world peace, and serve as a model for reforms to mainstream society. The first Rainbow Gathering was held in 1972 in Colorado. In July 1999, I briefly visited a Rainbow Gathering in Allegheny National Forest in Pennsylvania, with a friend (Coby Miller) and my two children (ages 11 and 7).

Many members of the Rainbow Family Tribe try to live simply off the land, and some wear homemade clothes and costumes. A few wear nothing at all, at least at the gatherings. In the 1980s, New Vrindaban devotees regularly attended the annual Rainbow Gatherings for chanting, dancing, and feasting, to attract converts, such as Kay. The Krishna kitchen provided free vegetarian prasadam meals which were appreciated by thousands. One New Vrindaban resident in particular, Radhanath Swami, attended so many Rainbow Gatherings that he became affectionately known as “Rainbow Swami.” [Endnote 117] Kay met the New Vrindaban devotees at the Rainbow Gathering held in Monongahela National Forest in July 1980.

Scene from the Rainbow Gathering at Monongahela National Forest (July 4, 1980). Image courtesy Wikipedia.

The July 4th 1980 “Om Circle” at the Rainbow Gathering at Monongahela National Forest. Image courtesy Wikipedia.

Festival participants assemble for the highlight of the gathering called the “Om Circle,” the central spiritual event at the annual Rainbow Gatherings. Held at noon on July 4th in the main meadow, thousands of participants stand in silence before joining hands to chant a collective, continuous “Om” that reverberates through the valley. The collective chant marks the culmination of a morning of silent prayer. Once the unified chant breaks, the circle erupts into celebration, often accompanied by a parade of children coming from Kiddie Village to dance in the center. The tradition is a cornerstone of the movement’s focus on peace and unity.

The 1980 West Virginia Rainbow Festival was noteworthy because it was the first gathering east of the Mississippi River. 6,000 people attended. It was also notorious, as the bodies of two women were found after the gathering, shot dead. There had been tension between local residents and the visiting “hippies,” and police concluded that local men led by a Greenbrier County resident Jacob Beard were responsible. Beard was convicted in 1999, but exonerated on appeal in 2000 and received a $2 million settlement for wrongful conviction. The killers remain at large. Kay continued: